By the way, don't be such prudes and let gay, bisexual and transgendered couples get married. why should they miss all the fun of marriage? I mean it.

Lack of sleep takes it's toll, raises it's ugly head and I need some of it, NOW! Tonight's show promises to be interesting, now if I could get some sleep I might not sound like an incoherent mess later today. Let's see.

From the bottomless pit of this blackest heart I want to thank the lot of you for the amazing display and support y'all displayed yesterday. I don't know how to thank you for what you all did, but here is an admittedly very small sample. I'm proud of all of you. I don't fucking deserve you people. Ladies and gentlemen, take a bow.

Love,

Moi

PD - Aside from that, great party! Happy Birthday Vero! Lots of pupup goodies for ya and your band will rawk the muthafuckin' hizzy!!!!!!!

Dreamt of being someone else. A TV host in UK. Trying to get in some hottie's pants and cussing out in the program. I was some kind of maniac. At the end of the dream I was outside the studio with Kitipri and I was asking about my ex. What the fuck was that? Lost in Translation's soundtrack rules so much. Wonderland's a great flick. So is Sin Noticias de Dios. In The Cut was shot beautifully but I'd prefer Nicole Kidman in the starring role than Meg Ryan.

Isolated. Wishing to break the ice. Fuck.

The Good Thief on the video and that movie has so much stuff that keeps me glued. Nevermind the plot and the acting, which I like. I'm just knee deep in the scenery, the music, the ambiance. Wishing I was there in quite different circumstances. Walking those streets late at night, high on life, the careless drunken walk of lovers, that stride, that smile, being on top of the world with someone and enjoying the moment. Meanwhile the movie's playing and Leonard Cohen's on the speakers, pay attention:

Leonard Cohen - A Thousand Kisses Deep


A THOUSAND KISSES DEEP Lyrics

Artist(Band):Leonard Cohen
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A THOUSAND KISSES DEEP Lyrics

The ponies run, the girls are young,
The odds are there to beat.
You win a while, and then it’s done –
Your little winning streak.
And summoned now to deal
With your invincible defeat,
You live your life as if it’s real,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.

I’m turning tricks, I’m getting fixed,
I’m back on Boogie Street.
You lose your grip, and then you slip
Into the Masterpiece.
And maybe I had miles to drive,
And promises to keep:
You ditch it all to stay alive,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.

And sometimes when the night is slow,
The wretched and the meek,
We gather up our hearts and go,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.

Confined to sex, we pressed against
The limits of the sea:
I saw there were no oceans left
For scavengers like me.
I made it to the forward deck.
I blessed our remnant fleet –
And then consented to be wrecked,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.

I’m turning tricks, I’m getting fixed,
I’m back on Boogie Street.
I guess they won’t exchange the gifts
That you were meant to keep.
And quiet is the thought of you,
The file on you complete,
Except what we forgot to do,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.

And sometimes when the night is slow,
The wretched and the meek,
We gather up our hearts and go,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.

The ponies run, the girls are young,
The odds are there to beat . . .

The weekend was uneventful. Not much to do. Got Mandrake Linux 10 RC1 installed in the laptop and it's working fine with both kernels (2.4.25 and 2.4.26) so it's doing better than the latest version of Knoppix. I'm seeing how the upgrade thing works but I'm sure I can sort it out until the newest Knoppix is out. 3.4 C'T's kernel 2.6 doesn't go well with my laptop. 3.3 2/15 is working fine but Mandrake Linux 10 RC 1 is working fine with both kernels and Gnome, unlike the latest versions of Knoppix. I still like Knoppix/Debian because of the apt upgrade system, which works beautifullly.

last night
vero
pepe
thee regulars
lazer's
drinkydrinks
dj fucking it up
me pissed off
drinkydrinks
dancing
friends
drinkydrinks
drunkenness
dancing
home
insomnia
sobriety
insomnia
what am i doing heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeere?
:D

have a great weekend

En estos dias no me siento melancolico.
En estos dias he vuelto a sonreir.
Siempre enojado, pero menos cinico.
y que tengo algo que decir.
Me siento querido, contento, apreciado.
Eso vale.
No tendre mucho en lo material
pero en el interior me siento rico.
Hoy siento tu amistad y tu carin~o.
Respirar no es un reflejo.
Hoy me siento bien vivo.
Gracias.

This one's to my friend Eze whom shared this lovely song with the rest of us last Saturday. Thank you for introducing me to a new song to play in my mental jukebox.

Damien Rice - Cheers Darlin'

Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover boy
Cheers darlin'
I got years to wait around for you
Cheers darlin'
I've got your wedding bells in my ear
Cheers darlin'
You give me three cigarettes to smoke my tears away

And I die when you mention his name
And I lied, I should have kissed you
When we were runnin' in the rain

What am I darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?

Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover man
Cheers darlin'
I just hang around and eat from a can
Cheers darlin'
I got a ribbon of green on my guitar
Cheers darlin'
I got a beauty queen
To sit not very far from here

I die when he comes around
To take you home
I'm too shy
I should have kissed you when we were alone

What am I darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?

Oh what am I? What am I darlin'?
I got years to wait...

And here's a staple of my mental jukebox so he can add it to his collection.

"I Was Wrong" - Vision Thing - Sisters Of Mercy

You say stay and never leave
you say meant for ever
I could believe you, but I don't
you say we're almost all alone together
all alone
you say
you say you will
I know you won't

I was wrong
I was wrong to ever doubt
I can get along without
I can love my fellow man
but I'm damned if I'll love yours

In a bar that's always closing
in a world where people shout
I don't wanna talk this over
I don't wanna talk it out
I was quite impressed until I hit the floor
isn't that what friends are for?
pain looks great on other people
that's what they're for

I was wrong
I was wrong to ever doubt
I can get along without
I can love my fellow man
but I'm damned if I'll love yours

On this one, I guess you could change the name in the lyrics and those close to me would know who am I talking about.

Rolling Stones - Angie

Angie, Angie, when will those clouds all disappear?
Angie, Angie, where will it lead us from here?
With no loving in our souls and no money in our coats
You can't say we're satisfied
But Angie, Angie, you can't say we never tried
Angie, you're beautiful, but ain't it time we said good - bye?
Angie, I still love you, remember all those nights we cried?
All the dreams we held so close seemed to all go up in smoke
Let me whisper in your ear:
Angie, Angie, where will it lead us from here?
Oh, Angie, don't you weep, all your kisses still taste sweet
I hate that sadness in your eyes
But Angie, Angie, ain't it time we said good - bye?
With no loving in our souls and no money in our coats
You can't say we're satisfied
But Angie, I still love you, baby
Ev'rywhere I look I see your eyes
There ain't a woman that comes close to you
Come on Baby, dry your eyes
But Angie, Angie, ain't it good to be alive?
Angie, Angie, they can't say we never tried

No, I'm not sad nor depressed. I'm a happy camper today. I just understand completely where my man is at this point. The only words I can suggest are the ones his heart refuses to hear, but all in good time my brother, all in good time. I got yer back.

I dreamt last night that I was happily married to this Nuyorican/Chicano girl and we were on our way to a Killing Joke gig. Being such a KJ fanboy my wife dropped me off at the gig while she was going to pick up her sister and meet me there. I got in time to watch them do their soundcheck. For some reason, Geordie was singing while Jaz was elsewhere. While watching them sing I was mouthing their lyrics and they wanted me to sing with them. We had fun and the guys somehow told them to hang around the stage in case Jaz wanted me to sing along with them on the proper gig. I met my wife and my sister-in-law (keep in mind that i'm not currently married) and we had a blast. In the dream I was surprised to see that I was married and that my wife and I got along really well. She knew about Killing Joke as well. Interesting.......

Meanwhile, last night I went out with Vero and we met Kenny and Pepe in Borders. They had coffee, I had juice and we spent a couple of hours talking about music and making fun of everything. Then Vero and I had some dinner. All in all, a good day.

anoche entre tragos y musica cortavenas volvi a sentirme humano. entre copas, canciones y amigos, risas y llantos, abrazos, bromas, domino, y ramas anexas pase la mejor noche de san valentin. porque estuve con gente que tenemos una pasion por la musica, un sentido de compromiso y un sentido del humor enfermizo. no concordaremos en varias cosas pero creo que en esa noche citando a un escritor "volvimos a ser gente". fue la mejor manera de regresar a la batalla. cabron@s los quiero. no habre sido ni soy ni sere el mejor ser humano en este planeta, pero sepan que lo digo con conviccion, aplomo y una sobriedad barbara: los quiero. Tambien disfrute hablar con la Srta Cocode demasiado. Una conversacion corta y sustanciosa pero bien refrescante. En verdad llego a casa escribiendo todo esto con una felicidad brutal.

Friday Vero wanted me to go show hopping with her but I refused. I do love her company. She's great and she's someone whos company I really enjoy, but I don't want to abuse her graciousness and goodwill. I still owe her from Thursday and I don't want to go further into debt. It's the principle of the thing. Not my style. Anyway, that first paragraph pretty much describes what happened last night.

On with the show..........

I haven't written in a long while, so deepest apologies. The week went by in an interesting way. I didn't sleep much for the weekend, so I kinda went a little nuts on Monday due to sleep deprivation. The only thing keeping me from a breakdown was the fact that I called Kymill at her launch hour and managed to get lots of laughter from her. I also called Eze, but he was busy with work issues and that was cool. I kept Kymill laughing her ass off and that sort of kept the breakdown at bay. Afterwards I managed to get an hour's worth of sleep until my mother woke me up for dinner.

Then I managed to lick a problem with ze laptop. See there's a new Knoppix release out so I wanted to also install WinXP Pro to ze laptop. There was an issue with USB drivers that was very annoying and kept me up for a while, while I figured it out. Yes I Read The Fucking Manual, but these manuals are so poorly written that it's not even funny. I licked that problem and then Al bought a computer, so of course I offered to update it's software for him. Awwwwwwwwww.

Nelson's got an R5 drum machine, and he offered it in order to make the DU revival show. Well at least we'll get the proper bloody drum sounds right. Teeeheee!

The radio show meeting went extremely well. Business was taken care of early so we had lots of spare time for fun and just hanging with each other. I miss the guys. Bunch of smartass goofy witty supremely intelligent motherfuckers. Gotta love them. Then later Pepe played the Probot record. Awesome. Really good stuff. You can see all the parties there had fun doing the record. Metal, the way it should be. Woot!

That pretty much kept me awake. I didn't see or talked to many people during that period. Vero came over for a quick lunch/dinner and it was cool. We later hooked up to go to Lazer on Thursday night. Mujer Satanica was there and some friends and we danced drank and had fun till the morning.

It's Valentine's weekend so I'll be pretty much off the radar, unless a good show comes up.

Have a great weekend!

Kinda bummed, but it's ok.

I wanted to go to Lazer to dance, but Vero didn't feel well and I couldn't reach either Wil or Luisma, so I stayed home, became a good boy. Indiana stopped by and brought me an ice cream sundae and some munchies. We chatted awhile, then she went home. I stayed here, watched movies and I'm ok now. Just added an Atom feed to the site and working on some stuff.

Good news is that I'm back with radio show. Good getting back with the guys. Really cool brainstorming session. Looking forward to get back in the game.

Good night. Have a great weekend.

saturday was fun indeed. headed out to the release party with vero and the night was a riot. good bands. we drank, hung out and then later we headed for a party at gufi and luisma. lots of schmoozing and socializing. introduced vero around and even though i had a lot of drinks i eventually sobered up. lots of fun. i took pictures so check out my pictures links.

sunday was spent doing a whole lot of nothing. didn't even bother to watch the superbowl, so don't ask.