revelations

this entry will only make sense to me and to her, if she ever bothers to find this.

truth comes unexpected, but there you are. alive. well. married. performing. deep inside i knew you were still here. you didn't leave this world. i guess you had legitimate reasons to do what you had to do and lie the way you did. i won't hold it against you. i just wanted to tell you how much you meant to me and to make amends. no matter. it's a moot point. life goes on. we move on and carry on. i hope your kids are doing fine. it looks like you're having fun and you deserve it. you managed to do what you wanted to do. i feel a weight lifted from my shoulders and my soul. it is a good way to end 2008 and start this new year. the temptation to contact you was strong, but it won't change things. let the past lie there. dormant. i'll stay with the good memories. you looked much better then. if we ever run into each other, i hope we can be civil, say hi, catch up and then move on. you have your life as i have mine. you have your partner, i have mine. and as i stumble into this, i'm grateful that eventually things worked out. for you. for me.

so i leave this chunk of my past adrift. let go. concentrate on the present and the moment. adios. i got closure. that's more than enough.