well after too much thought and after failing to reach her so many times i had sort of a long talk with v. i decided to break up on friendly terms with her. she's too busy trying to sort out her life, i'm busy with mine, but basically i think having a relationship does not fit her particular set of priorities. god knows she's getting too much flak from school and work. i felt like a 5th wheel really so i told her i want to end this. i told her i wanted to end it in friendly terms and i guess that's the general understanding of it. i gave it an honest try and i guess it ran it's course. too fucking bad. move on. i'm not mad, nor hurt. frustrated, maybe, but i gave us an honest shot. too bad things got too busy. oh well, like the cure sang, "another girl, another name".

in other news some people feel entitled to show up their faces when the door was slammed in them due to their lack of integrity, honesty, etc. etc. etc. now they feel entitled to demand things from me. excuse you, FUCK YOU! in big bold capital shiny letters. go back to the whole you crawled from, you piece of shit. don't even think you've got any rights. you forfeited those with your treachery you maggot.

ok, i feel so much better now. closing chapters in my life. let's look for openings.......