I just saw her today. She had a BBQ at her place. Helped her set up and get the stuff together afterwards. People showed up. We all had fun. The thing was that me and this other guy she likes was there too. It was all civil. Thing is, at the end of the night, I went back home. I guess she's ending up with the other guy. I don't know. Maybe it's my acceptance phase. I just didn't feel like making a move. Maybe I don't care. Maybe I care too much and I don't want to get hurt. I don't know. Right now I just want to go to sleep. Don't wake up. Drift. Unconciousness. That's all I want right now. Good night!