here's a little existencial conundrum for ya:

what's worse?

being attracted to someone you really like but you know it will probably be sort of unrequited? you find someone with your similar tastes and refreshing and you know that despite that you're attracted to each other, you won't be together as much as you like?

or having your subconscious bring you dreams featuring you and your ex to remind you of times past and that you'll never see her again? i mean every time you think you reach closure your subconscious brings it back to open those wounds.