A month ago.........

We were two lost souls who knew each other by reputation and our cybernetic antics. We never suspected that a simple movie date would turn out to be the beginning of something beautiful. The movie was forgotten as soon as we had lunch and the conversation was more interesting than to see Oliver Stone's latest. We did see a movie, that somehow surprised the hell out of us. Then we decided to take a little walk together. The day was over and we didn't want it to end, so we decided not to say "goodbye". We settled with "later".

I think the best part was that we were suprised to find out that we were gonna go to the same place later, and the original plan was to tell her about what I was started to feel for her then and there. Well, imagine my surprise that a couple of days later, I found out that she had the same feelings for me. Classic. Next thing we knew we met at the Giratorio, had that first kiss and the world changed.

Since then, no more drama, no more sorrow, no more unrequited feelings, no more ghosts of past relationships haunting me, no more solitude, no more loneliness. I feel alive and well and very much in love with her. I feel loved. I feel complete. I feel like this hole that was in my heart is now full of something warm, something good.

I look forward to a future with her. I have two years to get my shit together. It will be a lot of work, but it is worth it. Not only for us, but for myself. I think I've spent too much time mourning and in nihilist mode. TIme to make something worthy. Something worth fighting for. Time to feel once again like I felt when I had the odds stacked against me but I managed through thick and thin. I made it before. I know I can do it once again. This time, it's not just for me. It's for the two of us.

Thanks LS. From the bottom of my heart. You brought life to this shell. For that, I will always be grateful. I want to return that favor. With interest.

Love you babe. Happy anniversary!

Yours,

Moi.