sleeping all day and all night
eating cheese sandwiches
drinking sodas
waiting
just waiting for......
escape?
redemption?
death?
i should be so lucky
wishing i was comfortably numb
still i drift
between states
or sadness, melancholy, dreamless sleep
i don't want to dream right now
'cause my dreams betray me
they always do
whether i'm awake or not.
no one will rescue me
but myself
thus, i wait.