I just need to vent. I need to vent out and get all this shit out of the way. Scream. Things are working out yet I need to do more and need it now. Heh. End of rant. Move on. Nothing to see here.

About the radio show. We were lucky enough to come early and have a full hour to us. We recorded the tracks and used it as a rehearsal for the proper broadcast. We recorded six tracks. On the broadcast we did five of those six tracks, but to be honest, three of them were really worth it. The broadcast itself went well but I felt the three tracks that we pick were the best of the litter. Also on the broadcast we had Iohann Rashi aka Audio Interference throwing samples and lovely little noises about. To boot, we had some minutes left at the end of "Tension" so we decided to make some righteous lovely noise. I'm surprised they didn't pull the plug. Lovely results. *If* we're gonna do the album based from the sessions, there will be the different versions if things work out:

80 (78:42) Minute Version

Studio Tracks:

Bodydronelight
Seductif
Llegada A Puerto Rico (Remix 2)
Harsh
Tension
The Object Of Beauty

Live Broadcast tracks:

Bodydronelight (stronger version than the first recording)
Harsh (nice little noises coming from the left channel)
Tension (15 minute version with a noisefest at the end.)

We're gonna release a 60 (more like a 53:25 to be precise) minute version of it for mp3.com. Here's the track listing:

Bodydronelight (live version)
Seductif
Llegada A Puerto Rico (Remix 2)
Harsh
The Object Of Beauty
Tension (live version featuring Audio Interference)

We're doing a soundtrack for an independent Argentina/Puerto Rico film called "Entre Los Dioses Del Desprecio". Actually "Llegada A Puerto Rico" is one of our contributions to the soundtrack. Thanks to Prof. Carlos Camunas who gave us access to the score and let us play with it. Also from the Icaro Azul gig, we have an offer to contribute to another indie PR film called "Santa Cristal". We're supposed to meet the director and see how it goes from there. So you got it here first. HA!

Fun killing zombies with my mates. Shown them a picture taken of some of us 19 years ago. Fuck! Time sure does fly! Aaaaaaaaaaaanyway.....

Finally transferred the radio station sessions to mp3 and CD. I'm seriously considering changing the title of the new album to 042702. Got to talk to Carlos about that. I know that definetely three tracks from that date are going. Fuck! Heard the latest from my pals at the Musique Concrete Ensemble. Brilliant, beautiful. Do we have the new Windy and Carl, Low, Quasi here? Missed the show last night at Transylvania but fuck, things do happen, don't they. Ocio Lounge might have a new home. Fingers crossed.

Don't let the bastards grind you down. Ever. Always outnumbered, never outgunned.

Wicked session at the Radio Station. Recorded for posterity. Nice way to end the last song too. Lots of fun. Meanwhile fate throws me a nice little curveball to test my resolve. Fucking hit that one off the bloody park, if you ask me. Someone I've never met personally taught me to deal with those things with style and grace. I tend to agree. Ok, time to enjoy the rest of the weekend with my mates.

ANTARTICA 'SUMMER' TOUR 2002

VIERNES 26 DE ABRIL - Macroporno y Antartica @ Don Pablo Afterhours

SABADO 27 DE ABRIL - SESION DE LUNA LLENA @ INTERFERENCIA 303 @ FRECUENCIAS ALTERNAS 89.7 FM 88.3 EN DIRECTO DESDE LOS ESTUDIOS.

VIERNES 3 DE MAYO - Antartica, Santos Inocentes, UT y DJ MHX
Fecha : 03 de Mayo de 2002
Lugar : Faelos Club, en la americo miranda antes cafe tropical
Hora : 9:00pm Entrada : $10.00
Contacto : Alexius : [email]inmortall_1@yahoo.com[/email]

JUEVES 9 DE MAYO: Antartica Live P.A Set junto a DJ Gulembo @ Exxit junto a Noel Villegas en la Nueva X

SABADO 18 DE MAYO - en 2 ceibas Quebradillas
apartir de la 1:00pm
con las bandas:
Superaquello
Antartica
panoptica
Osilador4
Ongo
Los Huesos
Golpe Justo
Saguinata
Enagena
Mazukamba
Anxiety by default
Los Abortados
Coma
(y es el dia en que llegue a este planeta. wiiiiiiiii)

SABADO 8 DE JUNIO - Antartica y Un.real Cafe Pa`Casa en la carr. 107 antes del Longbranch(rip) frente a Wendys.

HABRAN GLOBOS, PAYASOS, SORPRESAS, BAILARINAS, FUEGOS ARTIFICIALES, MALVADISCOS Y RAMAS ANEXAS

[url]http://www.rojoynegro.com[/url]
have a nice day motherfuckers!

Updating Tour Dates. Birthday show confirmed. Live session tonight at WRTU. Last night was interesting. Film at Eleven.

My site and mirror have been redesigned. Keeping it simple just for you. Enjoy!

Another date added to the tour. Things *are* shaping up. LOL.
Last night went to celebrate Joey's Birthday. Two Bacardi Silvers and that was it for me, but it was fun for all involved. Building La Experiencia's website. Keeping busy. Busy is good these days. BTW, Bacardi Silvers are the official drink for now. Good things for my birthday on the 18th. That and The Others on DVD. YEAH.

A couple of changes on the tour dates. Please make note.

When I die
I don't want a rosary
When I die
Life goes on as usual
When I die
Don't want no mourners
No funeral party
No wake
No burial
Just burn me
and everyting I've done
Clean the slate
Erase my memory
All traces
that I was here
Flush the ashes
Down the toilet
Party your ass off
Cause when I die
Celebrate the fact
that I finally got off
This mortal coil
To a place
Where there's no pain
Nothing at all
And I won't bother you
No more

I dreamt about her and the kids last night
I woke up in tears
Because even when I come to terms with what happened
and accept it
It sneaks up on me
and I'm in that world of hurt
Again
I have to take a deep breath
Just to face the world
and I try to smile
To let go
And just when I think I have
It sneaks up
The wound opens again
I pray for more time
To heal
To forget
or at least not let it bother me as much
Life goes on
Move on
When I least expect it
Another chance
To live
To love
Lord knows
I've had enough of this

updated 'summer' tour schedule posted at a later date. :D

Hi. Instead of launching into a 'woe is me' rant, I'll just say this: I am grateful for what I have and who I have around me. Thank you for your time, your kindness and attention.

I came down with the cold. Hard. Shit all these days and all these shows. Something had to give and by Sunday I slept over 12 hours straight. Heard Jorge Castro's 'Sin Titulo #2' and it's one of the best ambient recordings I've ever heard. The whole progressions and the textures build up. I also got some work done for my buddy Al. I have the radio show meeting for tomorrow but right now I gotta take some more medicine and take a nap.

G'nite.

Pictures Pictures Pictures. Antartica Live @ Hard Rock Cafe @ Icaro Azul's CD release party.

I might be broke
I might be unemployed
but I'm a happy camper
cause I'm playing and you're not
it's might not be better than, say, sex
but it's way more better than sinsemilla
I'm playing
and that's something that no one can take from me
that and I'm catching a fucking cold

Layne Stanley might be dead.
He had it coming.
Heroin ain't no joke.
Too bad.
The Pet Shop Boys are doing a song about
a fan who fucks a rap star not unlike Eminem.
And on that note, we cue the music.

So.......had 2 weird dreams of late.
The first one I was back at PSU at my old dorm hall. The way the room was built on this dream was that it was longer and narrower than what the room was. I looked different. Younger and different. The whole situation was straight of some high school flick. I mean the whole atmosphere looked like a bloody high school. Uniforms, backpacks. I was in my room, came out to a hallway. Then this girl asks me if I could do a project for her. I refused. She asked me again. I told her it's gonna cost her. She says "I got just the thing for you". She goes down the hall and I follow her to this sort of dressing room. I stand outside but I see her calves and feet. She sort of squats down and removes her underwear. I see her butt. Then she stands up, goes outside and gives me her underwear. "Is that payment enough?"- she asks. I look puzzled. Right there her boyfriend comes up to me giving me shit. I just say "hey YOUR girlfriend gave it to ME. So settle that. I don't want your girlfriend. She's your problem." An argument ensued and then I woke up.

Second weird dream: I was living with my family in this huge three story house. It was really cute like the houses on South Atherton Street back in PSU now that I think about it. Anyway, mom comes with these two women. She says they're 2 Russian exchange students and that they'll be staying at the house. I said "cool." The ladies and I start talking and eventually we get to know each other. Time passes and somehow these ladies have a healthy sexual appetite. On me and each other. We get into a lot situations when I get aroused by these two. Sometimes we get to do it. Sometimes we don't. But the whole thing was....interesting. I remember speaking the little Russian I know on those two. Haven't had one of those dreams for a while.

Mom's in the hospital. Got back last night and had a hernia removed. She's expected to make it back today.

The show last night was a blast. Great response from the crowd and Icaro fucking rocked the house. Met a whole lottta people that until then I've seen on the 'net or on Pulsorock's board. It was really cool. Chocky and I made it there and back listening to the Insane Clown Posse. Sometimes you just need some really fucking stupid humor to get through the day. Worked like a charm.

My brother suggested some steps carrer-wise. I'm tempted to take them. It's always a pleasure to chat with him. Miss him lots.

Bedtime.

Tossing the usual drivel aside, I had the pleasure of joining my oldest bunch of friends in their usual Sunday Night RPG session. Yes RPG. Old School. No fucking computers. Books, dice, paper. We were playing a nice little RPG called "All Flesh Must Be Eaten". Zombie galore. I guess after watching 'Resident Evil' and then some choice Romero films, my pal Alberto decided to round up the posse for some fun. The game itself is easy enough and Alberto is one of the best storytellers I've ever had the pleasure of playing with. The whole gang was there. People I've met since we were kids (Edwin and Robert), College (Alberto, Kemuel) and then a bit afterwards (Alex and Arquimedes). We had lots of fun and my character (a hacker) got away with a lot of mischief. I think we'll finish next Sunday but the thing that struck me was that we all had a good time and Alberto observed that the pleasure was doubled because "I had all my best friends sitting there." True that Al. True that. The pleasure and the honor is mutual. Thanks to all of them for being there through all these crazy years.

Eze. I know you read this. You said so yourself. Thanks my man. For being there. Angelito too. You guys make life livable.

"sacred is an abused word.
control is a lie.
love is my truth." - Beau Sia

BEAU MY FRIEND YOU'RE SUCH A FUCKING GENIUS!!!!!!!!

This is one of those days that nothing happens. Sheer boredom. I'm writing songs just to avoid some of it. Nonetheless, I'm getting restless. Plan. Ponder. Think. Write. Tomorrow, rehearsal. Thursday, a show.