William Blake once wrote that "the road to the excess leads to the palace of wisdom".
Buckle up your seatbealts Blakey boy, the weekend's here!
So instead of wallowing in self-pity and that nonsense please bring the alcohol, bring the noise, bring the sex, bring me the radio show, bring me communion, just bring it so the weekend goes fast, hard and very fucking loud. Bring it so sleep and exhaustion become the only reason to rest. Bring it so Monday can come and my mind and body keeps busy so I can get all this shit done and over with.
Nihilism never sounds so sweet and tempting. And I will indulge. Oh yes, I will indulge.
Some might say I might harm myself by doing this. Fuck that! I'm already hurt, so bring the pain as well.
Have a good weekend kiddies!
Interview with Richard Stallman | BrunoTorres.net
Interview with Richard Stallman | BrunoTorres.net Interview with the proponent of the GNU GPL free software license. A must read.
Just when you thought things were bad enough. A co-worker's close relative just died and she just learned the news. Death being part of life and all, but it's hard anyway. I gave her my condolonces and wish for her all the strength to go through that process. Fuerza bebe, fuerza.
Otro dia mas, which isn't bad actually. Words were spoken, ideas exchanged and I hope that J. understands her role in the matter and takes responsibility for her actions and learns from them, as I take responsibility for mine. That said, I can move on and go on with my life. Yes, I am hurt, but life hurts anyway. You fall, get scraped, tend to your wounds and scars and move the fuck on. It's a pity something so good didn't last, but thanks anyway. In many ways I did see it coming and I enjoyed it as long as it did. Short and sweet, but for her sake, I hope she gets over her issues.
J you said todays that I'll always be your angel and your knight in shining armor. Unfortunately how can I be your knight if I you're not my damsel and how can I be your angel when you cut off my wings? Riddle me that, darling.... Contradictions galore.
Change is coming and I can feel it. More like a cathartic kind of change. It is needed and it is welcome.
In other news, part of me wants to sort out something with someone who cares for me a lot and I'm the one who can't return her feelings, but that same part knows that even though we have lots of things in common and we do enjoy each other 's company and we care lots for each other, I cannot fully return all that is given to me. It's fucking hard and fucking sad and it kills me because if there is someone in this world that deserves lots of good things, it's her.
Life is so fucking unfair it's not even funny, but I cannot dwell on that. I have to be grateful with many aspects of my lot in life. I have to follow that proverb: "Change the things you can, accept the things you can't and learn to know the difference". If it were that easy.
J you said todays that I'll always be your angel and your knight in shining armor. Unfortunately how can I be your knight if I you're not my damsel and how can I be your angel when you cut off my wings? Riddle me that, darling.... Contradictions galore.
Change is coming and I can feel it. More like a cathartic kind of change. It is needed and it is welcome.
In other news, part of me wants to sort out something with someone who cares for me a lot and I'm the one who can't return her feelings, but that same part knows that even though we have lots of things in common and we do enjoy each other 's company and we care lots for each other, I cannot fully return all that is given to me. It's fucking hard and fucking sad and it kills me because if there is someone in this world that deserves lots of good things, it's her.
Life is so fucking unfair it's not even funny, but I cannot dwell on that. I have to be grateful with many aspects of my lot in life. I have to follow that proverb: "Change the things you can, accept the things you can't and learn to know the difference". If it were that easy.
Kymill, Vero, Eze and The Good Doctor - thanks for your kind words of support. Love y'all.
Kymill - Extra thanks to you. Unfortunately I cannot think of England at this time. She's gone and I wish her well. She's pretty much the love of my life, but "todo tiene su final, NADA dura para siempre". So, I let go of her. In the very small chance that she actually comes back into my life (and I dream of this more often than I want or care to admit) there are lots of wounds to heal and lots of things to say. As it is, I don't see that day coming, but I still wish her and hers the best. Dredging up those memories don't help the healing process, but I know you didn't do it un purpose to hurt, rather to make a point in your case. Thanks.
Last night was a nightmare. I wanted to cry, kick, scream, curse, punch and I just couldn't. Vero, L. and The Good Doctor probably saw me in my worst. Lack of sleep and the J. situation took it's toll on me, but I'm still here. After a long night of the soul an hour of sleep and no internet at 3 am to work on, I managed to get it together enough so I finished all that I needed to do at 6:30 am. Then I just collapsed and slept a couple of hours. Enough so I could get up, shower eat something and head for work. I still had some residue in my head when I got to work but I heard Laika and music does soothe this savage beast. Work kept me busy and life a bit livable.
Had dinner at El Mexicano with an acquaintance then headed back for work. Feel much better now. It's an uphill battle, but it has to be done, and it will.
"I'll still be here
as long as you
and I'll walk away
in spite of you"
Bauhaus - Crowds
"Worry is what I have instead of you." - Me. No, J. that wasn't meant to be funny. Oh well.
And now for something completely different:
Kymill - Extra thanks to you. Unfortunately I cannot think of England at this time. She's gone and I wish her well. She's pretty much the love of my life, but "todo tiene su final, NADA dura para siempre". So, I let go of her. In the very small chance that she actually comes back into my life (and I dream of this more often than I want or care to admit) there are lots of wounds to heal and lots of things to say. As it is, I don't see that day coming, but I still wish her and hers the best. Dredging up those memories don't help the healing process, but I know you didn't do it un purpose to hurt, rather to make a point in your case. Thanks.
Last night was a nightmare. I wanted to cry, kick, scream, curse, punch and I just couldn't. Vero, L. and The Good Doctor probably saw me in my worst. Lack of sleep and the J. situation took it's toll on me, but I'm still here. After a long night of the soul an hour of sleep and no internet at 3 am to work on, I managed to get it together enough so I finished all that I needed to do at 6:30 am. Then I just collapsed and slept a couple of hours. Enough so I could get up, shower eat something and head for work. I still had some residue in my head when I got to work but I heard Laika and music does soothe this savage beast. Work kept me busy and life a bit livable.
Had dinner at El Mexicano with an acquaintance then headed back for work. Feel much better now. It's an uphill battle, but it has to be done, and it will.
"I'll still be here
as long as you
and I'll walk away
in spite of you"
Bauhaus - Crowds
"Worry is what I have instead of you." - Me. No, J. that wasn't meant to be funny. Oh well.
And now for something completely different:
Novell hits back at Ballmers anti-Linux memo - Computer Business Review
Novell hits back at Ballmers anti-Linux memo - Computer Business Review
Novell laying thee smackdown on Microsoft. Booya!
Novell laying thee smackdown on Microsoft. Booya!
Wired 12.11: The Mystery of the Coca Plant That Wouldn't Diei
Wired 12.11: The Mystery of the Coca Plant That Wouldn't Die
Herbicide resistant coca plants? And it was natural?
Herbicide resistant coca plants? And it was natural?
J:
First, off let me make clear that I cherish what little we had and thank you for sharing those moments with me. I don't ask much of life and I certainly didn't ask much of you because of your other commitments that I understand are way more important. I only asked of you to be honest, which you are, and I'm grateful.
I also asked you to share a little quality time together and in all fairness, I didn't require much at all. Like all human beings, I need time for companionship, love, affection, intimacy, conversation, or something as simple as you being there. Given your schedule, I didn't ask much.
Unfortunately it takes two to create a relationship and I thought we had a good basis to work on. I was wrong. It takes also some willingness from your part to make things work, which you don't have. I'm sorry that others before me didn't treat you the way you deserve to be treated, but that's not my problem. I'm not responsible for the damage they gave you.
I deserve to be happy with someone that appreciates me for what I am and viceversa. I deserve someone who makes this world a little more livable and fun to be around with. I thought you were that person. I'm sorry that you don't believe yourself to be that person.
I really get upset when I see a wasted opportunity, a wasted chance to make something good, or when I see something with good potential thrown out the window and discarded like yesterday's trash. It's a damn shame what happened to us, because I believed that we had great potential, should we've chosen to take that route. Obviously, you don't.
So I take it upon myself to find someone who can. Someone to enjoy the good and the bad. Someone who can give some meaning to an otherwise meaningless existence. Someone who gets it. Someone who's not only a friend, but a lover as well. Someone with a sense of humor, wit and intelligence. Sensitive, passionate. With her own mind about things. I didn't ask much from you and I don't ask much from life. Formalities and all that bullshit mean nothing to me, because I only look for what matters. I thought you had it. I'm sorry you didn't realize that.
You're so beautiful and you have so much to give to the lucky one who manages to be with you. I'm glad I was lucky enough to be with you, even if it was for a short while. I'm sorry you don't have the courage and strength to give us a go, but I cannot stick around for something that won't happen. I value what little I have in life, but there are some things that I need in order to make this life worth living. Like the song goes "I am human and I need to be loved, just like everybody else does". I'm sorry that you didn't choose to walk this path with me, but I cannot and will not force you. You are responsible for your own decisions, as I am of mine.
So being grateful for what we had, I walk away from you. Dissappointed because the potential was there for something good, but otherwise grateful. Thank you for what we shared. Thank you for bringing some light and happiness into this life of mine. It seems that we shined so bright and intensely, but it didn't last as long. Then again, better to burn out than to fade away.
I hope you manage to regain your confidence and trust in yourself. I hope that you manage to be able to once you regain that, you will find someone who will make your life worth living. I am alright, but this path I will walk alone. I will not bother you nor contact you. I think it's best because you'll have the space and time to take care of your things and I'll have the same. I'd rather part ways with a clean slate and little or no negativity between us.
Anyway, this is getting long, winding and repetitive so like the Indians say walk in beauty girl. Have a nice life. Thank you and good bye.
Moi
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Ok kids, move on, nothing to see here. A long day, a long conversation, longing for J. for two weeks and the inevitable conclusion. Shit happens, then you die. At least others around me are experiencing good things in the relationships department and I'm glad for them. Me? I'm just dissappointed but otherwise happy and eager to move on.
First, off let me make clear that I cherish what little we had and thank you for sharing those moments with me. I don't ask much of life and I certainly didn't ask much of you because of your other commitments that I understand are way more important. I only asked of you to be honest, which you are, and I'm grateful.
I also asked you to share a little quality time together and in all fairness, I didn't require much at all. Like all human beings, I need time for companionship, love, affection, intimacy, conversation, or something as simple as you being there. Given your schedule, I didn't ask much.
Unfortunately it takes two to create a relationship and I thought we had a good basis to work on. I was wrong. It takes also some willingness from your part to make things work, which you don't have. I'm sorry that others before me didn't treat you the way you deserve to be treated, but that's not my problem. I'm not responsible for the damage they gave you.
I deserve to be happy with someone that appreciates me for what I am and viceversa. I deserve someone who makes this world a little more livable and fun to be around with. I thought you were that person. I'm sorry that you don't believe yourself to be that person.
I really get upset when I see a wasted opportunity, a wasted chance to make something good, or when I see something with good potential thrown out the window and discarded like yesterday's trash. It's a damn shame what happened to us, because I believed that we had great potential, should we've chosen to take that route. Obviously, you don't.
So I take it upon myself to find someone who can. Someone to enjoy the good and the bad. Someone who can give some meaning to an otherwise meaningless existence. Someone who gets it. Someone who's not only a friend, but a lover as well. Someone with a sense of humor, wit and intelligence. Sensitive, passionate. With her own mind about things. I didn't ask much from you and I don't ask much from life. Formalities and all that bullshit mean nothing to me, because I only look for what matters. I thought you had it. I'm sorry you didn't realize that.
You're so beautiful and you have so much to give to the lucky one who manages to be with you. I'm glad I was lucky enough to be with you, even if it was for a short while. I'm sorry you don't have the courage and strength to give us a go, but I cannot stick around for something that won't happen. I value what little I have in life, but there are some things that I need in order to make this life worth living. Like the song goes "I am human and I need to be loved, just like everybody else does". I'm sorry that you didn't choose to walk this path with me, but I cannot and will not force you. You are responsible for your own decisions, as I am of mine.
So being grateful for what we had, I walk away from you. Dissappointed because the potential was there for something good, but otherwise grateful. Thank you for what we shared. Thank you for bringing some light and happiness into this life of mine. It seems that we shined so bright and intensely, but it didn't last as long. Then again, better to burn out than to fade away.
I hope you manage to regain your confidence and trust in yourself. I hope that you manage to be able to once you regain that, you will find someone who will make your life worth living. I am alright, but this path I will walk alone. I will not bother you nor contact you. I think it's best because you'll have the space and time to take care of your things and I'll have the same. I'd rather part ways with a clean slate and little or no negativity between us.
Anyway, this is getting long, winding and repetitive so like the Indians say walk in beauty girl. Have a nice life. Thank you and good bye.
Moi
-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-
Ok kids, move on, nothing to see here. A long day, a long conversation, longing for J. for two weeks and the inevitable conclusion. Shit happens, then you die. At least others around me are experiencing good things in the relationships department and I'm glad for them. Me? I'm just dissappointed but otherwise happy and eager to move on.
CLUSTERFUCK 2004!
At press time we don't know who's the president of the u.s. recount, anyone?
Meanwhile back at home, we got ourselves a recount and if things prevail the elected governor has to deal with not only a legislature of the opposing party (a good thing. check and balances and all that) but a resident commissioner of the opposing party as well. So compromises and deals have to be made if any work is going to get done.
Anyway, the local independence party lost is franchise due to their arrogance. Even though they got in their token candidates to their legislature, their sheer arrogance and their lack of wisdom to exclude other branches of the independence movement got them the lowest percentage ever. So they'll have to take it to the streets in order to get inscribed and keep sucking on the electoral fund tit. I'd suggest they disband and get together with all other branches and form a new party, but they're too stubborn to realize that. Fuck 'em.
J. needs all the support she needs in order to quit smoking. Send good vibes her way, thank you!
At press time we don't know who's the president of the u.s. recount, anyone?
Meanwhile back at home, we got ourselves a recount and if things prevail the elected governor has to deal with not only a legislature of the opposing party (a good thing. check and balances and all that) but a resident commissioner of the opposing party as well. So compromises and deals have to be made if any work is going to get done.
Anyway, the local independence party lost is franchise due to their arrogance. Even though they got in their token candidates to their legislature, their sheer arrogance and their lack of wisdom to exclude other branches of the independence movement got them the lowest percentage ever. So they'll have to take it to the streets in order to get inscribed and keep sucking on the electoral fund tit. I'd suggest they disband and get together with all other branches and form a new party, but they're too stubborn to realize that. Fuck 'em.
J. needs all the support she needs in order to quit smoking. Send good vibes her way, thank you!
Well elections at home are interesting and probably a recount will be issued. In the US, Bush is winning the electoral vote, but still he has a 100 votes to go before winning. I fear for Puerto Rico and the US.
HOW-TO: Get music OFF your iPod - Engadget - www.engadget.com
HOW-TO: Get music OFF your iPod - Engadget - www.engadget.com
Hello, beautiful people. Here's some useful information for you Ipod Addicts.
Hello, beautiful people. Here's some useful information for you Ipod Addicts.
Your Quiz Score: Liberal-Libertarian
http://www.theadvocates.org/quiz.html
Your Quiz Score: Liberal-Libertarian: "According to your answers, the political description that fits you best is...
Borderline between Left (Liberal) and Libertarian.
Left (Liberal)
Liberals usually embrace freedom of choice in personal matters, but tend to support significant government control of the economy. They generally support a government-funded 'safety net' to help the disadvantaged, and advocate strict regulation of business. Liberals tend to favor environmental regulations, defend civil liberties and free expression, support government action to promote equality, and tolerate diverse lifestyles.
Libertarian
Libertarians support maximum liberty in both personal and economic matters. They advocate a much smaller government; one that is limited to protecting individuals from coercion and violence. Libertarians tend to embrace individual responsibility, oppose government bureaucracy and taxes, promote private charity, tolerate diverse lifestyles, support the free market, and defend civil liberties.
The red dot on the Chart shows where you fit on the political map.
Your Personal issues Score is 90%.
Your Economic issues Score is 50%."
Your Quiz Score: Liberal-Libertarian: "According to your answers, the political description that fits you best is...
Borderline between Left (Liberal) and Libertarian.
Left (Liberal)
Liberals usually embrace freedom of choice in personal matters, but tend to support significant government control of the economy. They generally support a government-funded 'safety net' to help the disadvantaged, and advocate strict regulation of business. Liberals tend to favor environmental regulations, defend civil liberties and free expression, support government action to promote equality, and tolerate diverse lifestyles.
Libertarian
Libertarians support maximum liberty in both personal and economic matters. They advocate a much smaller government; one that is limited to protecting individuals from coercion and violence. Libertarians tend to embrace individual responsibility, oppose government bureaucracy and taxes, promote private charity, tolerate diverse lifestyles, support the free market, and defend civil liberties.
The red dot on the Chart shows where you fit on the political map.
Your Personal issues Score is 90%.
Your Economic issues Score is 50%."
It was a really slow day at the office and I decided to change my linux distributions on the laptops. Switched from Knoppix to Kanotix. Seems like that distro is better suited to work with laptops and the latest technology. You need to tweak it a bit, but then again, that's what's Linux is all about.
OkCupid! Slut Test
OkCupid! Slut Test: "The Results ARE IN! You are: 69% Slut. Your above score was normalized against the average, so don't even TRY to disagree with us. Science is certain, and so are we: you are absolutely 69% Slutty."
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