Ok it's 4:10 am and V. fucking RAWKS! I love our little tete a tetes. Humanity's spared. For now. Congratulations. Lots of love to ya.
Rose's got a brand new job and that's good. Looking forward to what the week brings. Congratulations girl.
Got together with the homies for some hardcore Top Secret S.I. One shot adventure and it was good. Good times for a bloody change. Yes!
Sunday. Sleep. Think. Do a whole lot of nothing. It's beautiful. Some interesting dreams. Quiet. No worries.
someone mentioned i need time to heal. that maybe so, but the only one thing that can heal me is love. like the song goes, only love can save me, but love doesn't arrive when you actually want it. i guess i'm screwed. LOL
Conversations with V. take interesting turns. Anyway the words 'angry' and 'vindictive' were used. Angry? Hell yeah. Anger is a source of energy and they say deppression is anger turned inside. Vindictive? Well I do believe in karma, an eye for an eye, retribution, righting wrongs, etc. No. I didn't say I was a saint, and I don't plan to apply for it. Anyway I just love the phrase she used.
Nina Simone is buried and Sinead O' Connor is quitting music. The world is a sadder place. Thanks for the music you lovely ladies. Nina Simone was as old as my own mother. Yeah, even people like me have a mom. Anyway still cranking up her music.
Meanwhile Shakira tells it to Madonna like it is. You go girl! Unfortunately Maddy is not known for her spine. She just wants to create a stir to sell records, but even she has to play it safe. Don't want to aliente her audience, oh no.
V. Thanks for your honesty and your conversations. You made my evening. Thanks to J. for the pics too.
Film at 11.
Meanwhile Shakira tells it to Madonna like it is. You go girl! Unfortunately Maddy is not known for her spine. She just wants to create a stir to sell records, but even she has to play it safe. Don't want to aliente her audience, oh no.
V. Thanks for your honesty and your conversations. You made my evening. Thanks to J. for the pics too.
Film at 11.
The Smoking Gun is a much needed source of laughter these days. Between tales of thong thieves, stolen artwork, pretentious asswipes passing as rockers ripping off people, and the ocassional kiddie porn scum caught in high places, brings relief to the daily drudgery. Thank 'Bob' it's Friday!
Well the gig was ok. It was cool and some friends showed up. Only had a chance to do one set because my ride had to leave early. Shit happens, but I had a good time blasting out some quality tunes.
On the other hand, some people don't understand the concept of me not having anything to do with them. You know who you are. You run, hide, lie, disrespected me, took me for granted, stab me in the back and expect me to forget about what happened? And now you want to talk? You forfeited any chance to deal with me in any capacity. Talk is very cheap, coming from you, and your actions spoke louder than anything you have to say. Don't talk to me, don't buy me drinks, don't be fucking hypocrites. I have better things to do with my time than deal with the likes of you. You should talk about behaving like adults. Stay well away. Do I make myself clear?
In a very unrelated subject, I just chatted with my nephew. That was very cool and that made my day. Take care my man. You rock!
Now back to our regularly scheduled deprogramming.....
On the other hand, some people don't understand the concept of me not having anything to do with them. You know who you are. You run, hide, lie, disrespected me, took me for granted, stab me in the back and expect me to forget about what happened? And now you want to talk? You forfeited any chance to deal with me in any capacity. Talk is very cheap, coming from you, and your actions spoke louder than anything you have to say. Don't talk to me, don't buy me drinks, don't be fucking hypocrites. I have better things to do with my time than deal with the likes of you. You should talk about behaving like adults. Stay well away. Do I make myself clear?
In a very unrelated subject, I just chatted with my nephew. That was very cool and that made my day. Take care my man. You rock!
Now back to our regularly scheduled deprogramming.....
Haven't posted that much. Working on my music for tomorrow's gig. Got some good tunes and I gotta organize the set. Aside from that, not much to tell kiddies. Later.
Well I got a friend in NYC and she wrote an article about people's reactions to the war with Iraq. Enjoy!
some stuff that i said/wrote/heard that i need to remember:
hope is my heroin. life is too short to be down. besides, i'll be down and i'll sleep when i'm dead.
i want my hope fix. badly.
good night kids.
hope is my heroin. life is too short to be down. besides, i'll be down and i'll sleep when i'm dead.
i want my hope fix. badly.
good night kids.
Not only do I have to deal with all this shit that's going on. Nina Simone passed away. Keep pouring that rain. I got some tunes to crank.
So now that my birthday's coming up, I came up with a little wish list of things I wanna get. So, erm, you can, erm, cooperate and whatnot. Tee hee. Yeah right.
Anyway, Ian Curtis hung himself on my birthday. You got a good band going, you're about to tour the US and boom! Game over. Depression and epilepsy are serious motherfuckers. Respect to Mr C. and I love Joy Division, but I guess you gotta appreciate what you have before deciding to check out this existence.
Mt. St. Helens exploded on my birthday and I'm sure I share it with some famous people :P ha!
Yes, I'm bored.
Anyway, Ian Curtis hung himself on my birthday. You got a good band going, you're about to tour the US and boom! Game over. Depression and epilepsy are serious motherfuckers. Respect to Mr C. and I love Joy Division, but I guess you gotta appreciate what you have before deciding to check out this existence.
Mt. St. Helens exploded on my birthday and I'm sure I share it with some famous people :P ha!
Yes, I'm bored.
"We're all players in the dating game" - Jose E. Roman 4/20/03 19:38
I spent the last 20 minutes waking in the rain. Letting it soak right through me. Deep in thought. It's been awhile since I done that. I guess the weather matches my mood these days after all. It's ok though. I was coming from dinner with someone I met recently. She's nice, cool, grounded, honest, and very funny. Talking to her gave me some insights into relationships. Especially she was talking to me about how her ex was so good and she blurted that she'll compare her dates against her ex. I told her that's not fair at all. To her, to her dates. It's not fair at all. I told her so. I can't believe how people do that. I mean, it's just unbelievable, but that's my opinion. She needs to get over some issues but I think she's good friend material. Friend only.
So anyway at least she's honest about stuff and I appreciate that. I look forward to meet her again. I like her so that will happen soon. Anyway I just thought about things and even though I can consider Lana the love of my life, I don't compare any people I meet against them. It's not fair because to start they're not the same. Each person is unique with their flaws and their virtues.
I spent the last 20 minutes waking in the rain. Letting it soak right through me. Deep in thought. It's been awhile since I done that. I guess the weather matches my mood these days after all. It's ok though. I was coming from dinner with someone I met recently. She's nice, cool, grounded, honest, and very funny. Talking to her gave me some insights into relationships. Especially she was talking to me about how her ex was so good and she blurted that she'll compare her dates against her ex. I told her that's not fair at all. To her, to her dates. It's not fair at all. I told her so. I can't believe how people do that. I mean, it's just unbelievable, but that's my opinion. She needs to get over some issues but I think she's good friend material. Friend only.
So anyway at least she's honest about stuff and I appreciate that. I look forward to meet her again. I like her so that will happen soon. Anyway I just thought about things and even though I can consider Lana the love of my life, I don't compare any people I meet against them. It's not fair because to start they're not the same. Each person is unique with their flaws and their virtues.
Ode To Cowards
This one's for you
so-called-friends
Shake my hand
Stab me with the other
Praise me with your words
Hurt me with your actions
And when the truth comes out
Out you go
Dissappear
No guts to face me
Pull of your masks
I see right through you
and like my man John Malkovich
in one movie said:
"There's nothing I'd love more to kill you
but I'll be happy to kick you all over the field
like a football."
Or something like that.
Still if I give in to violence
I'd give you the importance you don't deserve.
So I'll be happy to watch you hide, squirm, avoid me
Run while you can.
Karma and you conscience will take care of you all.
But not before you heard it from me first.
I know.
That's all you hear from me.
Don't expect forgiveness, there's none to give
Don't expect tears, never shed them for cowards
Things are screwed enough as it is.
So wallow in your hollow victories.
I'm still here. Waiting by the river. Like the Chinese.
Waiting....
This one's for you
so-called-friends
Shake my hand
Stab me with the other
Praise me with your words
Hurt me with your actions
And when the truth comes out
Out you go
Dissappear
No guts to face me
Pull of your masks
I see right through you
and like my man John Malkovich
in one movie said:
"There's nothing I'd love more to kill you
but I'll be happy to kick you all over the field
like a football."
Or something like that.
Still if I give in to violence
I'd give you the importance you don't deserve.
So I'll be happy to watch you hide, squirm, avoid me
Run while you can.
Karma and you conscience will take care of you all.
But not before you heard it from me first.
I know.
That's all you hear from me.
Don't expect forgiveness, there's none to give
Don't expect tears, never shed them for cowards
Things are screwed enough as it is.
So wallow in your hollow victories.
I'm still here. Waiting by the river. Like the Chinese.
Waiting....
Rain rain rain rain
Matmos on the soundsystem
Pretty lonely over here
Owners not showing up
and of course me the responsible one
tending to an empty local, an empty bar
instead of going to the movies or something.
Oh well.....
Actually I like Matmos so it's ok.
No one's bothering me, yet.
So life is good.
Kinda wished Lana was here.
I miss kissing and fucking in the rain.
You can only wish for so much eh?
Blogjumping anc checking other people's lives. Blogsnob rules.
Matmos on the soundsystem
Pretty lonely over here
Owners not showing up
and of course me the responsible one
tending to an empty local, an empty bar
instead of going to the movies or something.
Oh well.....
Actually I like Matmos so it's ok.
No one's bothering me, yet.
So life is good.
Kinda wished Lana was here.
I miss kissing and fucking in the rain.
You can only wish for so much eh?
Blogjumping anc checking other people's lives. Blogsnob rules.
It's been raining nonstop these past few days. I've been completely numb to it all. I'd like to think that the weather mirrors my mood, but unless I've mutant weather control powers, that is not the case. Actually I enjoy the rain. Friends have called/shown up/chatted with me and I appreciate it guys. I'm just numb to it all. I can't be bothered. Although I love talking with people, so that's cool. I don't know if I'm making any sense. I'm getting over it. I guess numbness is my reaction to it all. Well anyway, life goes on. I interviewed for a job with a telecommunications company so that's good. If I get that job, I'll be busy, so that's good. Anyway, it's 20 minutes before going out so it's shower time kiddies. Later.
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