A sort of return
My first day of training. Woop tee doo! Got there way too early, fighting to keep myself awake, and I didn't get in time to the post office to get my mail. Wheeeee! Whatta day! I'm glad I'm back at work though. Feel more productive that way. Or something.
Ta!
It's been good these few days. Job. And another job for my days off. Cool conversations with a really cool lady. Also a good evening of intelligent and very conversation with Daryl. Things are starting to get better. Also Daryl got me laughing my ass off at Strong Bad's emails. Check that shit out. I think I haven't laughed this hard since watching TV Funhouse or the Butters South Park episode. Yes, I'm laughing and very happy. For now. ;) Coolest thing is that you can email Strong Bad with your own questions.
With Crap,
Moi
With Crap,
Moi
Sometimes you lose sight of the things in front of you. Then you realize their value when you put some distance between them. This happened to me with this girl I spoke with at a gig back in PR. We met, she took pictures, talked a bit. Months later I discover how talented and wonderful she is. How much I'd like to be at her side. Well at least we got the 'net. That's something.
In other news, I might have a job tomorrow. Fingers crossed.
In other news, I might have a job tomorrow. Fingers crossed.
I had a good time last night but today I don't want to deal with the real world. It's just I wished I had someone with me right now. Watched 'Ghost World' finally. That didn't improve my mood but hey. I just wished I had someone by my side. Someone to hold, cuddle, kiss and that I could get along with. Alright. Rant's over.
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Had a blast at the Independent Bar downtown. 80's music and some industrial downstairs. Definetely the place to be on Saturdays. No charge before 11 pm bwahahahaahah
oh and this one's reposted because I can:
:D
oh and this one's reposted because I can:
:D
Looking for a job is a full-time job by itself. Heh. Lots of resumes sent, interviews, the whole nine yards. Can't wait to start working and having my own place. You have no idea. Night.
Once again, Daryl coming through with some good stuff. His blog pointed me to the plight of Katie Sierra a high school student who's being persecuted for speaking against the war in Afghanistan and starting an Anarchist's club at school. Censorship anyone? Thanks D!!
get up
brush teeth
check emails
shower
breakfast
interviews
internet
dinner
sleep
downloading some cool music too.
missing some people. terribly.
but i won't let that stop me
from doing what i must do
because i must
brush teeth
check emails
shower
breakfast
interviews
internet
dinner
sleep
downloading some cool music too.
missing some people. terribly.
but i won't let that stop me
from doing what i must do
because i must
memories betray me
find myself wanting
to kiss your hair
to kiss your lips
touch you
taste you
feel you
your earthquake
your passion
your smile
your warmth
i know it's over
gone and done with
i'll never see you again
still......
sometimes.....
find myself wanting
to kiss your hair
to kiss your lips
touch you
taste you
feel you
your earthquake
your passion
your smile
your warmth
i know it's over
gone and done with
i'll never see you again
still......
sometimes.....
Finally got to watch Pinero and Changing Lanes. Liked both movies. I also went to check out Valencia Community College to pursue some job opportunities. Aside from that and feeling a bit lonelier than usual, everything's ok. Not much to say so I'll keep it short and sweet...
i'm not ready for a relationship right now but i'll take any good cuddles, hugs, kisses, etc I can get. Always craving for that. Heh.
I'm tired and I should be sleeping but what the fuck, right? I'm working towards reaching my goal and that keeps me busy. Fielding several offers to see what happens. Miss my friends and going out but this I must do in order to regain my independence, my own place, stake my own claim in the world. Good night.
Hello Floriduh! Noelle Bush (yes Jeb Bush's daughter, one of 'the little brown ones' according to George Sr.) was found with coke on the rehab center she was in for a previous drug felony. Wooooohoooooo. Meanwhile three guys in I-75 were arrested because of suspected terrorist activity. Nothing certain yet, but a citizen's tip led to the arrest. Post 9/11 paranoia or is it for real? You decide.
Ok boys and girls, I got a Floriduh license. Unlike Tennessee's it was not quick and painless. Went to the DMV and I felt just like the DMV at home except the attendants were nicer because I'm a nice guy. I had all the necessary paperwork so it went fast but the visitors to the DMV looked like they came from Mars. This reinforces the theory that Whorelando is just another part of PR.
Please support the spread the dot initiative. It's a good cause for the net.
Oh and I got a phone. Good and solid job prospects. That is good. :)
Ok boys and girls, I got a Floriduh license. Unlike Tennessee's it was not quick and painless. Went to the DMV and I felt just like the DMV at home except the attendants were nicer because I'm a nice guy. I had all the necessary paperwork so it went fast but the visitors to the DMV looked like they came from Mars. This reinforces the theory that Whorelando is just another part of PR.
Please support the spread the dot initiative. It's a good cause for the net.
Oh and I got a phone. Good and solid job prospects. That is good. :)
File this one under There's A Sucker Born Every Minute: David Bowie's releasing another Greatest Hits collection. This one has a catch.
Another that will be missed when he's gone: Warren Zevon was diagnosed with terminal cancer. All the good ones are going leaving us with the mediocre ones. Oh well.
Solo album and show for Portishead's singer. I hear a track she made with 'O'Rang years ago and it was excellent. I expect some good stuff to be released.
This is all for now. Have a great weekend.
Another that will be missed when he's gone: Warren Zevon was diagnosed with terminal cancer. All the good ones are going leaving us with the mediocre ones. Oh well.
Solo album and show for Portishead's singer. I hear a track she made with 'O'Rang years ago and it was excellent. I expect some good stuff to be released.
This is all for now. Have a great weekend.
Ok weirdness galore. I'm posting from a friend's computer and somehow it wasn't taking the updates. Blogbuddy to the rescue. I love this utility and have it on the laptop. Now I'm able to post. Got several good leads for jobs here, so I am happy. Eager to work and find a place of my own. My hosts are gracious but I don't want to overstay my welcome. Rainy and stormy down here but hey, I like rainy and stormy. No freaking humidity. AC and Cable Modem damnit! I'm in heaven. Florida's Democratic primary is a joke. First the general election, now the primaries. None dare call it a conspiracy. Heheh. I miss my friends back home, but theres work to do here. Later.
So here we are. Whorelando, Floriduh. What a strange trip this day was. I didn't sleep at all so I was checking some emails when the crew that's remodeling my mother's bathroom broke a pipe. I almost had enough water for a shower and I ended up shaving at my grandma's. I glad I did get a chance to visit her. Ran some errands for her after shaving, gave her a big kiss and a big hug then I left for home. I switched some contents of my suitcases and brought them as part of my carry on luggage. Father screamed something at me and I just stayed quiet, focused. I was leaving home. No one was stopping me. The time came and Al came to pick me up. He offered to drive me to the airport. As soon as I began to say goodbye to dad, he started crying a bit. This is the second time I've seen my old man cry in my life. The first time we were mad at each other too. I left the house to stay with some friends at the time and when it was time to leave, he cried. That fucked me up bad, but my decision was made. I have to take control of my life. I called this friend of mine earlier at her job, she called we talked, promised to stay in touch. Good woman. Then Mom came, gave me some money but she was angry at me and my decision and started to throw things in my face, in a manner of speaking. I was about to tell her that that's one of the reasons I was getting the hell out, but held myself in check. I wasn't going to humor her stooping down to her level. Let he deal with that. Off to the airport.
Not many people were there, not surprisingly. Got my luggaged checked and searched, then the wait. All my electronics were on the carry on and I got stopped but to their credit, they were fast, polite and I answered their questions. The flight was bumpy and kinda long. I guess the two hour wait plus the three hour flight took their toll. I was lucky to have a row of seats to myself. I tried to sleep but couldn't. I was amazed that after all this years that I've travelled flying still keeps me on my toes. Insomnia, the wait and the flight were keeping me awake but in a daze. When the plane finally touched down I was relieved. Rafy picked me up, then we drove to his house to meet Nuria. Rafy's a former bandmate and a friend. Nuria's a friend I used to club with. I got them together, they married. I was the best man at their wedding. We got to the house and then we went to eat out. I chose Sonic to renew my Sonic fix. R & N chose Subway. We talked and ate queso manchego. Yummy. Haven't had that in a while. Then we talked about music, gossip, strategy and whatnot. On the way to the apartment I called home but as usual they don't have the time to even get a pen and paper to write down a number. *Sighs* All in all a very long day. Night.
Not many people were there, not surprisingly. Got my luggaged checked and searched, then the wait. All my electronics were on the carry on and I got stopped but to their credit, they were fast, polite and I answered their questions. The flight was bumpy and kinda long. I guess the two hour wait plus the three hour flight took their toll. I was lucky to have a row of seats to myself. I tried to sleep but couldn't. I was amazed that after all this years that I've travelled flying still keeps me on my toes. Insomnia, the wait and the flight were keeping me awake but in a daze. When the plane finally touched down I was relieved. Rafy picked me up, then we drove to his house to meet Nuria. Rafy's a former bandmate and a friend. Nuria's a friend I used to club with. I got them together, they married. I was the best man at their wedding. We got to the house and then we went to eat out. I chose Sonic to renew my Sonic fix. R & N chose Subway. We talked and ate queso manchego. Yummy. Haven't had that in a while. Then we talked about music, gossip, strategy and whatnot. On the way to the apartment I called home but as usual they don't have the time to even get a pen and paper to write down a number. *Sighs* All in all a very long day. Night.
Ok this is it. Fate throws a wrench to gum up the works, but I'm going steady. A date for to take a test and then an interview. Tomorrow morning, things will be resolved. So either I stay for a little while longer or I leave. Some things tie me up to the island but at the end, I have to do this for me. No one else. So I think that I might take that plane after all.
What do you want me to say about today that hasn't been played to overkill by the major media outlets? Well actually I've got three things to say: 1. Was it worth pissing our hard earned rights away. 2. Have we succeded in all the military actions to get Bin Laden? 3. Does all the killing we've done in the name of this war against terror bring back any of the people we lost at the WTC, the Pentagon and over Pennsyvannia? 4. Has the US become a better nation because of this? 5. Has the US and it's people realized that this attack is a response to our goverment policies worldwide? I think you know the answer and I'll state it anyway: No.
It takes courage to defend and take a stand for your country, but it also takes courage to criticize it when your country fucks up. Of course it's easier for everyone to label people who criticize the current state of affairs. Even better to dismiss them or call them the enemy. It takes guts to be able to accept what's wrong with this country. Tell the truths people don't want to hear. 9/11 was a reality check. The damage we inflict as a result of our policies came home. We have to deal with it and we have to be able to realize that we're not the only ones here. Until we realize that, things are going to get ugly for all of us.
The US's chief weapons inspector in Iraq had the courage to tell the truth about all the hoopla about Saddam Hussein. Sorry Mr. Rumsfeld if you want to justify you and Dubya's warmongering, you'll have to look elsewhere. Yet in true Republican fashion we go to war in order to set a smokescreen to hide the real problems in this country. Business as usual.
What do you want me to say about today that hasn't been played to overkill by the major media outlets? Well actually I've got three things to say: 1. Was it worth pissing our hard earned rights away. 2. Have we succeded in all the military actions to get Bin Laden? 3. Does all the killing we've done in the name of this war against terror bring back any of the people we lost at the WTC, the Pentagon and over Pennsyvannia? 4. Has the US become a better nation because of this? 5. Has the US and it's people realized that this attack is a response to our goverment policies worldwide? I think you know the answer and I'll state it anyway: No.
It takes courage to defend and take a stand for your country, but it also takes courage to criticize it when your country fucks up. Of course it's easier for everyone to label people who criticize the current state of affairs. Even better to dismiss them or call them the enemy. It takes guts to be able to accept what's wrong with this country. Tell the truths people don't want to hear. 9/11 was a reality check. The damage we inflict as a result of our policies came home. We have to deal with it and we have to be able to realize that we're not the only ones here. Until we realize that, things are going to get ugly for all of us.
The US's chief weapons inspector in Iraq had the courage to tell the truth about all the hoopla about Saddam Hussein. Sorry Mr. Rumsfeld if you want to justify you and Dubya's warmongering, you'll have to look elsewhere. Yet in true Republican fashion we go to war in order to set a smokescreen to hide the real problems in this country. Business as usual.
Heheheh. Created this poll out of sheer boredom and for our mutual amusement. Pick your fave reason down there. It helps if you know Spanish. Sorry. ;)
Met my Grandma today. Probably for the last time. She's not my Grandma by blood, but she helped to raise my Mom and looked after us like we were her grandchildren. They did so much for us I don't know how to repay her, but I'll sure try. I almost cried when we were talking. I always wanted her to meet my fiancee or my wife. Shit! I don't know if I will manage to do it, but I'll try. She deserves that and more.I probably won't see my dad either. He's very sick. He lived a full life so when he passes I won't miss him as much. Still, I want him to know when things get better and successful with me. Just to make him proud. Well he has my half-brother and my younger bro to be proud of. I want him to go happy. Enough rants.
I won't be your soundboard
I won't be your whipping boy
I'm tired of other people's drama
and yours as well
I'm tired of hearing you blame others for your situation
Take charge
Do what must be done
Stop whining
Start doing
Otherwise
stop wasting my time
I won't be your whipping boy
I'm tired of other people's drama
and yours as well
I'm tired of hearing you blame others for your situation
Take charge
Do what must be done
Stop whining
Start doing
Otherwise
stop wasting my time
Therapy? - Unrequited - Troublegum
Don't
wake
me
I'm
so
empty
I
I
I
tried
I'm
sorry
I've seen you without me
I've seen you without me
You can say what you want
I've seen you without me
I've seen you without me
I've seen you without me
(I know that you will understand)
I've seen you without me
(I know that you will understand)
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Therapy? - Innocent X - Caucasian Psychosis
Is this real or is it a dream?
I can't seem to tell the difference anymore
Caught between needings
And the need to be real
Your open arms gaping
Like a busted sore
I turn and burn
my back like a rack
Your tourniquet twists me
Dangerous red
I breath in the air
It's pavement gray
It shrinks my skin
And I've done nothing wrong
I drop to my knees and work my skin
I feel this life pumping right through me
Love and death die on the dirty floor
Your upturned face doesn't even see
That this is all
I'll ever have
Cause I don't know
What I want
But something inside
Something inside
Something inside
I've done nothing wrong
Just in case I ever need one, my porn star name is Cort Steele. Nice to meet ya. 2 days until I finally get over this nonsense called living in Puerto Rico. Wheeeeeeee!
Wow. Today at work I had a nice surprise. The woman I went with to the movies showed up at the radio station. I was pleasantly surprised. Francisco came in later. It was nice to see her again. She stayed through the radio show and we had dinner together. The radio show was a killer. Here's the set list. All requested by the fine denizens who post at pulsorock's forums.
PLAYLIST FINAL:
Glissando (1st Hour)
Eyeless in Gaza - Twilight
King Crimson - Thela Hun Ginjeet
My Bloody Valentine - Honey Power
Therapy? - Screamager
Sigur Ros - ny batteri
Blind Guardian - Lord Of The Rings
Sepultura - Policia
X-Japan - Sadistic Desire
King's X - Dogman
Ram-Zet - For The Sake Of Mankind
Interferencia 303 (2nd hour)
Droid - Lurch
Andreas Tjillander - Untitled #2 (Musique Concrete Ensemble remix)
KFMDM - Virus
Arovane - Theme
Telefon Tel Aviv - Fahrenheit Fair Enough
Ladytron - Playgirl
Ministry - Everyday Is Halloween
Antartica - Sedatif (en vivo en Enlaces)
Hijos de Cain - Jorge Por Favor
Amalgama (3rd Hour)
Los Planetas - dB
Caifanes - Quisiera Ser Alcohol
La Experiencia - La Isla Del Dr. Moron
Heroes Del Silencio - Babel
Santa Sabina - La Daga
la polla records - alicia
la polla records - los 7 enanitos
ongo - abriendo puertas
coabey - realmente
pixies - vamos
superaquello - el ornitorrinco
Very eclectic and very cool playlist. We had lots of fun in the show and a lot of responses. Much love to the guys at the show. Cheo, Eze, Iohann and Angelito made it all possible and worthwhile. We had lots of fun. I am gonna miss you so much you fuckers have no idea. Lots of love and keep up the good work.
Afterwards, this woman and I went to Zabor to watch Herman aka The Man Searching For Fun spin with another DJ. I was pleasantly surprised to find Pri and Bea there. Bea gave birth to Mauro a beautiful boy recently. Pri was back from the UK. It was really nice to see them. Carlitos and Bea bought me a Rum and Coke and this woman and I talked a lot about ourselves, what we want, what we look for. She told me some stuff that really touched me is that she appreciated me because she could be herself and not worry about anything at all when I was around, that I made her laugh and that she appreciated my friendship. I just smiled. That made my evening. Then I went home, got the new battery for my laptop so I'm charging it while I'm writing this. Anyway, off to bed. Tomorrow I begin to prepare for my flight on Wendesday.
Night.
PLAYLIST FINAL:
Glissando (1st Hour)
Eyeless in Gaza - Twilight
King Crimson - Thela Hun Ginjeet
My Bloody Valentine - Honey Power
Therapy? - Screamager
Sigur Ros - ny batteri
Blind Guardian - Lord Of The Rings
Sepultura - Policia
X-Japan - Sadistic Desire
King's X - Dogman
Ram-Zet - For The Sake Of Mankind
Interferencia 303 (2nd hour)
Droid - Lurch
Andreas Tjillander - Untitled #2 (Musique Concrete Ensemble remix)
KFMDM - Virus
Arovane - Theme
Telefon Tel Aviv - Fahrenheit Fair Enough
Ladytron - Playgirl
Ministry - Everyday Is Halloween
Antartica - Sedatif (en vivo en Enlaces)
Hijos de Cain - Jorge Por Favor
Amalgama (3rd Hour)
Los Planetas - dB
Caifanes - Quisiera Ser Alcohol
La Experiencia - La Isla Del Dr. Moron
Heroes Del Silencio - Babel
Santa Sabina - La Daga
la polla records - alicia
la polla records - los 7 enanitos
ongo - abriendo puertas
coabey - realmente
pixies - vamos
superaquello - el ornitorrinco
Very eclectic and very cool playlist. We had lots of fun in the show and a lot of responses. Much love to the guys at the show. Cheo, Eze, Iohann and Angelito made it all possible and worthwhile. We had lots of fun. I am gonna miss you so much you fuckers have no idea. Lots of love and keep up the good work.
Afterwards, this woman and I went to Zabor to watch Herman aka The Man Searching For Fun spin with another DJ. I was pleasantly surprised to find Pri and Bea there. Bea gave birth to Mauro a beautiful boy recently. Pri was back from the UK. It was really nice to see them. Carlitos and Bea bought me a Rum and Coke and this woman and I talked a lot about ourselves, what we want, what we look for. She told me some stuff that really touched me is that she appreciated me because she could be herself and not worry about anything at all when I was around, that I made her laugh and that she appreciated my friendship. I just smiled. That made my evening. Then I went home, got the new battery for my laptop so I'm charging it while I'm writing this. Anyway, off to bed. Tomorrow I begin to prepare for my flight on Wendesday.
Night.
Let's see....
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Yesterday a good friend and I shared some tears over the phoneline. I guess we realized how much shit we've taken recently but also we found strength in each other which was good. I was a bit worried about her but she's fine.
Went out to pay some bills with this bloody heat. Fuck! It was a short hop, thank God. I went back took care of some ignoramuses and then off to a movie with a friend.
I went to the movies with this girl I haven't seen in years. Francisco brought her to the station last week and we were both stunned. She's much better than when I last saw her so we agreed to go to watch Insomnia. Saw it twice but being the nice guy that I am, I saw it with her. Made her laugh a lot before the movie. Afterwards we went for some beers. It was good seeing her. Talked about lots of things and she's still gorgeous.
Got home with a bit of a pain in the stomach. I don't know why. Taking care of it. Kinda weird if you ask me.
Tomorrow's my last show at the station. Killer playlist. All requests. Good nonethless. Hopefully it will all be alright. Now if I can somehow get some rest.....
Forgot to mention...... Thursday night I dreamt of CJ. CJ's an old college flame. Used to party a lot and enjoyed each other's company. I dreamt that she was supposed to take me to the airport but we were trying to somehow having sex before going there. It was a strange but funny dream. Take care woman. Wherever you are.
Update. Last night I also dreamt about someone close to me from the past but right now I don't know who. Oh well....
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Yesterday a good friend and I shared some tears over the phoneline. I guess we realized how much shit we've taken recently but also we found strength in each other which was good. I was a bit worried about her but she's fine.
Went out to pay some bills with this bloody heat. Fuck! It was a short hop, thank God. I went back took care of some ignoramuses and then off to a movie with a friend.
I went to the movies with this girl I haven't seen in years. Francisco brought her to the station last week and we were both stunned. She's much better than when I last saw her so we agreed to go to watch Insomnia. Saw it twice but being the nice guy that I am, I saw it with her. Made her laugh a lot before the movie. Afterwards we went for some beers. It was good seeing her. Talked about lots of things and she's still gorgeous.
Got home with a bit of a pain in the stomach. I don't know why. Taking care of it. Kinda weird if you ask me.
Tomorrow's my last show at the station. Killer playlist. All requests. Good nonethless. Hopefully it will all be alright. Now if I can somehow get some rest.....
Forgot to mention...... Thursday night I dreamt of CJ. CJ's an old college flame. Used to party a lot and enjoyed each other's company. I dreamt that she was supposed to take me to the airport but we were trying to somehow having sex before going there. It was a strange but funny dream. Take care woman. Wherever you are.
Update. Last night I also dreamt about someone close to me from the past but right now I don't know who. Oh well....
The drummer of one of my favorite bands in the whole world passed away. Shit. The good always die young and we have to deal with the mediocre and the really awful. I will play some of their songs on the show this weekend. This weekend's playlist is shaping up to be the shiznit. Nice way of leaving the show.
Just finished watching "Last House On The Left". Brilliant slice of cheese. Luisma and I decided that a remake is in order. So here are our suggestions for most of the characters and the soundtrack:
The Dr. - John Larroquette
Krug - Vincent Gallo
Weasel - Steve Buscemi
Junior - Seth Green
The Evil Girl - Courtney Love
Vincent Gallo should do the score like David Ness did the original score. Otherwise the soundtrack should go to Revolting Cocks.
The Dr. - John Larroquette
Krug - Vincent Gallo
Weasel - Steve Buscemi
Junior - Seth Green
The Evil Girl - Courtney Love
Vincent Gallo should do the score like David Ness did the original score. Otherwise the soundtrack should go to Revolting Cocks.
After watching Werner Herzog's Nosferatu on DVD, it still confirms my status. Herzog's a sick motherfucker with a sense of humor. Klaus Kinski is still scary and F.W. Murnau would approve. I've seen Aguirre The Wrath Of God and Nosferatu. Probably will have to beef up with Cobra Verde and the rest of Herzog's works. Of course the soundtrack by Popol Vuh is the shiznit. Prime Krautrock. Late period Swans and Angels of Light are ripping them off badly, but nice influence to have. Nice little migraine afterwards, but a nap took care of it. Missed my friends of Icaro Azul on the telly tonight. Sheesh!
A week until today I'll be flying out of here and I'm not coming back for a long while except for maybe a vacation or two. Whatta boring day.
Let me tell you how shitty my day's been:
Get up this morning to get some stuff done. The fridge's door won't stay closed. Check that everything is where it should be. The damn thing won't close. Third try now the thing's closed.
I go to the computer to get my emails, surf, grab some ideas for articles and whatnot. Mother's coming again with a last minute plea for me to stay. After a long argument I have to scream at her. "NO. I DONT WANT TO BE HERE. YOU HAD ALL THIS TIME TO DO IT, AND IM SICK OF THIS. I'M OUT. I DON'T WANT ANYTHING FROM YOU. I JUST WANT TO LEAVE AND GET THE HELL OUTTA HERE."
Harsh words, I know but if you spent (or rather wasted) the last 10 months of your life in a place you hated, with all the promises they told you unfulfilled, in a place that you're uncomfortable, you might begin to grasp how bad my situation is. That's not even mentioned all the shit I've taken from my lovely family all this years. No. Sorry. Let them cope with their situation. I just want out of it all. The only one I care about is my little brother and he's happily on his own.
Eze messages me. Today's meeting's been cancelled. Great. I told him I ain't coming on Saturday I want to record 1 hour of music because my friend's bands are playing and it's the last chance I'll have to see them in a while. He says "no" you got the first hour and I want you to do it. Christ almighty! I think I can reach an arrangement with Angelito to see if we can record it Thursday or Friday night. I don't want to be around on Saturday, I'm sorry. I'm not the sentimental type and the last broadcast thing with the FA staff's gonna get sentimental and really gay ;)
This girl messages me and we talk. We've known each other by reputation only and she says she wants to meet me. I tell her "Ok. Great. Go to the station meeting and you'll get to see the station and the guys who run the show." Well with the station meeting cancelled, there won't be much to do right? So after much ado, I ask her to drop by the Borders near my house for a cup of coffee and some conversation.
Meanwhile my buddy Luisma comes over for some conversation about music and movies which is always nice. I go with him for some quick shopping and drops me at my house. I come in, have dinner, trim my haircut, cut the mustache and the goatee. I'm on schedule. Half an hour before our meet. Burned 2 CD's of my music. One for Luisma, the other for the woman I'm meeting.
Call her. She's still at her job. I ask her if she wants to cancel. Says "no no no". Asks me to call her around 20 till 8 to confirm. It's ok for me. Surf a bit. Call her. She's at her house. Tells me she'll get out of the house in 10 mins. I take 20 minutes and make my way to Borders.
40 minutes later, I'm in Borders, very fucking pissed. Sitting in a chair, reading their in-house magazine. I wonder what the hell happened. I call her on my cellphone, and on the third try, the fucking thing ate my minutes. I have to call 611 have them refund the minutes. Fuck it, at this stage I'm heading home. Called her for the last time I'm walking down my street heading towards my house and she tells me she just arrived.
Sorry I start to tell her but I'm going home. I tell her in a very controlled tone that it's bad enough as it is that I had a shitty day and then a long wait. Not this time. She apologizes. The phone goes offline. I'm this short of throwing the phone, kick and curse like nobody's business. Fuck it. I'm heading home. Call her from home. Tell her I didn't mean to hang up on her my phone died. She understands that I'm pretty fucking pissed at this point and apologizes. She had a rough day at work and at this online publication she runs with a bunch of her pals. She asks me when can she make it up for me. I ask her for suggestions. She wants me to tag along with her friends on Friday night. No. Not my style. I don't like going into situations where I'm in a room full of strangers. (I know I'm in a band but it's a whole different game there) Besides I might need Friday to record my last show. She can't do it tomorrow, so she settles for Thursday. Thursday it is. I'll ask her to go to the movies. She'll be paying. Let's see if I can get away with that.
Right now I'm upset at this whole day but if I can get away with this girl paying *me* to go to the movies with her, I'll be happy.
So..... How was your day?
Get up this morning to get some stuff done. The fridge's door won't stay closed. Check that everything is where it should be. The damn thing won't close. Third try now the thing's closed.
I go to the computer to get my emails, surf, grab some ideas for articles and whatnot. Mother's coming again with a last minute plea for me to stay. After a long argument I have to scream at her. "NO. I DONT WANT TO BE HERE. YOU HAD ALL THIS TIME TO DO IT, AND IM SICK OF THIS. I'M OUT. I DON'T WANT ANYTHING FROM YOU. I JUST WANT TO LEAVE AND GET THE HELL OUTTA HERE."
Harsh words, I know but if you spent (or rather wasted) the last 10 months of your life in a place you hated, with all the promises they told you unfulfilled, in a place that you're uncomfortable, you might begin to grasp how bad my situation is. That's not even mentioned all the shit I've taken from my lovely family all this years. No. Sorry. Let them cope with their situation. I just want out of it all. The only one I care about is my little brother and he's happily on his own.
Eze messages me. Today's meeting's been cancelled. Great. I told him I ain't coming on Saturday I want to record 1 hour of music because my friend's bands are playing and it's the last chance I'll have to see them in a while. He says "no" you got the first hour and I want you to do it. Christ almighty! I think I can reach an arrangement with Angelito to see if we can record it Thursday or Friday night. I don't want to be around on Saturday, I'm sorry. I'm not the sentimental type and the last broadcast thing with the FA staff's gonna get sentimental and really gay ;)
This girl messages me and we talk. We've known each other by reputation only and she says she wants to meet me. I tell her "Ok. Great. Go to the station meeting and you'll get to see the station and the guys who run the show." Well with the station meeting cancelled, there won't be much to do right? So after much ado, I ask her to drop by the Borders near my house for a cup of coffee and some conversation.
Meanwhile my buddy Luisma comes over for some conversation about music and movies which is always nice. I go with him for some quick shopping and drops me at my house. I come in, have dinner, trim my haircut, cut the mustache and the goatee. I'm on schedule. Half an hour before our meet. Burned 2 CD's of my music. One for Luisma, the other for the woman I'm meeting.
Call her. She's still at her job. I ask her if she wants to cancel. Says "no no no". Asks me to call her around 20 till 8 to confirm. It's ok for me. Surf a bit. Call her. She's at her house. Tells me she'll get out of the house in 10 mins. I take 20 minutes and make my way to Borders.
40 minutes later, I'm in Borders, very fucking pissed. Sitting in a chair, reading their in-house magazine. I wonder what the hell happened. I call her on my cellphone, and on the third try, the fucking thing ate my minutes. I have to call 611 have them refund the minutes. Fuck it, at this stage I'm heading home. Called her for the last time I'm walking down my street heading towards my house and she tells me she just arrived.
Sorry I start to tell her but I'm going home. I tell her in a very controlled tone that it's bad enough as it is that I had a shitty day and then a long wait. Not this time. She apologizes. The phone goes offline. I'm this short of throwing the phone, kick and curse like nobody's business. Fuck it. I'm heading home. Call her from home. Tell her I didn't mean to hang up on her my phone died. She understands that I'm pretty fucking pissed at this point and apologizes. She had a rough day at work and at this online publication she runs with a bunch of her pals. She asks me when can she make it up for me. I ask her for suggestions. She wants me to tag along with her friends on Friday night. No. Not my style. I don't like going into situations where I'm in a room full of strangers. (I know I'm in a band but it's a whole different game there) Besides I might need Friday to record my last show. She can't do it tomorrow, so she settles for Thursday. Thursday it is. I'll ask her to go to the movies. She'll be paying. Let's see if I can get away with that.
Right now I'm upset at this whole day but if I can get away with this girl paying *me* to go to the movies with her, I'll be happy.
So..... How was your day?
Closer to the date and my family's trying to hold on to me. Not a chance. My ass is outta here. No stopping me.
Dinner date and I talked but she's not interested in anyone these days. Her loss.
Fate throws me another curveball. This time a girl I had a crush on from way back. Now single. Man. Whatta day!
Ten more days and my ass is outta here. Can't wait.
Fate throws me another curveball. This time a girl I had a crush on from way back. Now single. Man. Whatta day!
Ten more days and my ass is outta here. Can't wait.
Last night I went to a dinner date. It was interesting to say the least. Entertaining. Right now I'm just tired of the week. Can't wait to fly out of here. Fuck. Can't wait for that flight. Aside from that, I watched last night a film called "Birthday Girl". Even though I'm not a fan of Nicole Kidman's body of work, I happen to like her in "To Die For", "The Others" and now "Birthday Girl". I liked that film very much. Rent it.
Thanks for the opinions (solicited and unsolicited) about the song.
Thanks for the opinions (solicited and unsolicited) about the song.
Ok so I finally spent all night recording a version of the damn ;) song I'm happy with. I added more keyboards, re-recorded the vocals, added some harmonies (ha!) and I guess I'll be happy with this version. I guess this will be the final official verson. Unless I can hook up with Carlitos and have him add some sick guitars of his own. One can always be hopeful right?
If you have problems downloading the stream copy the url of the link above and paste it on Winamp or Real Player. You can also download the file here.
If you have problems downloading the stream copy the url of the link above and paste it on Winamp or Real Player. You can also download the file here.
Remember the song below? Well I added vocals now. I'm kinda embarassed because my lovely friend Angelito put them upfront at mixdown. Evil one, he is. Yes, that is my voice normally. I know. Sorry. ;) Well in case you hate it, I'll re-record the vocals at home and put some effects on them or won't put them so in front of the mix. Ha!
:: how jedi are you? ::
Like I told you before, do NOT fuck with the little green guy. Gracias Cheo.
Everyday Is Like Sunday...not
Spent the afternoon with my uncle, his girlfriend, her kid and two cousins eating in a fancy schmancy restaurant. It was good to see them, drink a few, trade stories and having a laugh. My cousin D. has a Korean girlfriend and they have a kid too. Cute little tyke. 2 years old. Cute and very nice. Full of energy. His wife works at the restaurant and she's a hard worker. I'm happy for them. My uncle's girlfriend's a nice girl Kid's smart and polite. My other cousin she's a really sweet young lady. Finishing college, working too. It was good to talk to her. We have the same taste in movies so we caught up in movies, stories, gossip, the usual stuff.
It was good to see them. Haven't had a good time with relatives for a long while.
I woke up early today so I think I'll call it a night. Night.
Spent the afternoon with my uncle, his girlfriend, her kid and two cousins eating in a fancy schmancy restaurant. It was good to see them, drink a few, trade stories and having a laugh. My cousin D. has a Korean girlfriend and they have a kid too. Cute little tyke. 2 years old. Cute and very nice. Full of energy. His wife works at the restaurant and she's a hard worker. I'm happy for them. My uncle's girlfriend's a nice girl Kid's smart and polite. My other cousin she's a really sweet young lady. Finishing college, working too. It was good to talk to her. We have the same taste in movies so we caught up in movies, stories, gossip, the usual stuff.
It was good to see them. Haven't had a good time with relatives for a long while.
I woke up early today so I think I'll call it a night. Night.
These are some lyrics to a song I wrote last night. So far the song's instrumental, but hopefully I'll record the vocals soon. It's encoded at 32 bits so don't expect a hi-fi stream, but it should give you an indication of things to come. Yeah that's me on all the instruments.
Antartica - Tinnitus copyright music and lyrics 2002 Jose E. Roman. All rights reserved. All wrongs reversed.
Un ruido
que interfiere esta senal
evidencia
de algo que anda mal
Cicatrices
que me dejas al partir
y memorias
que se niegan a morir
(third verse same as the 1st)
A sabiendas
no merezco tu perdon
y lo nuestro
no tiene solucion
coro (x8)
Y esta espera
no se puede prolongar
y lo nuestro
se tuvo que acabar
I can't believe this. A producer from the Don Francisco show at Univision emailed me and asked me about going to his show to talk about punk. I shit you not. This is legit. Free ticket to Miami? Hotel and Limo? Hell yeah!
Here's to mullets, drugs and dumbasses. Meet Calvin Montgomery and Michael Headley. The men were just arrested on drug charges after trying to arrange a crack cocaine sale to undercover officers in Oklahoma City. So what separates this case from your standard buy and bust operation? Well, Montgomery, 42, and Headley, 37, were operating from the Biltmore Hotel at the same time 500 cops were attending the Association of Oklahoma Narcotic Enforcers annual training conference at the hotel, according to this probable cause affidavit filed by Oklahoma Bureau of Narcotics and Dangerous Drugs Control agent William Diaz. When cops entered the pair's room, they found crack and pot stashes and drug paraphernalia. In addition, Diaz told TSG, the pair had stored $39,000 in cash and travelers checks in the Biltmore's safe. Headley claimed the money came from a recent "insurance settlement." Courtesy of The Smoking Gun.
I bet Michele's laughing her ass off. Howdy neighbor! ;)
Which Breakfast Clubber Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
Dont You Forget About Me Motherfuckers! ;)
"When I get the money I'll get together all of the guys from the breakfast club
and play it over and over and over again and I'll yell to them......
WOW! I REALLY THOUGHT YOUR CAREERS WOULD BLOW UP AFTER THAT!!!"
- Beau Sia
Which Breakfast Clubber Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
Dont You Forget About Me Motherfuckers! ;)
"When I get the money I'll get together all of the guys from the breakfast club
and play it over and over and over again and I'll yell to them......
WOW! I REALLY THOUGHT YOUR CAREERS WOULD BLOW UP AFTER THAT!!!"
- Beau Sia
Lest I forget: Ok kids this is how a remake should be made. This version is as good as the original. Props.
Well I haven't blog much of late. Been very busy. Got my upper left wisdom tooth pulled out and I still got this cough. Haven't slept much at all. This fucking heat is killing me. Aside from that, I'm leaving PR. Sept. 11th. For good. Tickets bought and all. I can't wait. 21 days left to leave.
Life is turning me into what I hate the most. People demand honesty, but they lack it. Fuck! And then *they* wonder about the existence of cliches. Life's gonna turn me into one. Respect is supposed to be given. Now it will be earned. Innocent until proven guilty. Guilty until proven innocent. Proactive instead of reactive. No more Mr. Nice Guy. People have killed him. Trust no one. Let them earn it for a change. I've had enough of people's bullshit. Don't like it? Tough. There are 6 billion others out there. Take your pick.
STOP THE PRESSES!!!!!!!!
(thanks to Daryl for this one)
*If* you like the White Stripes and I do, check this out:
Steven McDonald of Redd Kross has added bass parts and harmonies to the White Stripes "White Blood Cells" album.
The results are amazing. The whole thing is on mp3 format authorized by the band.
You can download it here until August 25th. After that, it's gone daddy gone. Download and judge for yourself.
This has made my day.
This and a friend's news have cheered me up from a deppressing dream about my ex. YAY!!!!!!!!
(thanks to Daryl for this one)
*If* you like the White Stripes and I do, check this out:
Steven McDonald of Redd Kross has added bass parts and harmonies to the White Stripes "White Blood Cells" album.
The results are amazing. The whole thing is on mp3 format authorized by the band.
You can download it here until August 25th. After that, it's gone daddy gone. Download and judge for yourself.
This has made my day.
This and a friend's news have cheered me up from a deppressing dream about my ex. YAY!!!!!!!!
I should be happy in some aspects of my life which I am
but being the non-conformist that I am I refuse to accept the ones I don't like
and I have to make some decisions. Soon.
I wish I could sleep, I really do and I can't get any......
sleep that is. :)
Alright on with the show.....
but being the non-conformist that I am I refuse to accept the ones I don't like
and I have to make some decisions. Soon.
I wish I could sleep, I really do and I can't get any......
sleep that is. :)
Alright on with the show.....
I haven't written in a while. Been sick and busy. Sorry about that. Right now I'm waiting for a friend to call and see if I can do the move. I hate leaving PR but I can't get a decent job. It's pissing me off. Right now I'm undecided. Got some more options but let's see what happens. Right now I'm really tired. Physical and Mental, I gotta hang on regardless. Aside from that I need to relax.
Just a reflection of my mood during this time I've spent back "home". If I ever made a film about 9/11/01, this would be the soundtrack. It'd be a short black and white piece.
"the dead flag blues" - godspeed you black emperor!
the car's on fire and there's no driver at the wheel
and the sewers are all muddied with a thousand lonely suicides
and a dark wind blows
the government is corrupt
and we're on so many drugs
with the radio on and the curtains drawn
we're trapped in the belly of this horrible machine
and the machine is bleeding to death
the sun has fallen down
and the billboards are all leering
and the flags are all dead at the top of their poles
it went like this:
the buildings tumbled in on themselves
mothers clutching babies picked through the rubble
and pulled out their hair
the skyline was beautiful on fire
all twisted metal stretching upwards
everything washed in a thin orange haze
i said: "kiss me, you're beautiful --
these are truly the last days"
you grabbed my hand and we fell into it like a daydream or a fever
we woke up one morning and fell a little further down --
for sure it's the valley of death
i open up my wallet and it's full of blood
"the dead flag blues" - godspeed you black emperor!
the car's on fire and there's no driver at the wheel
and the sewers are all muddied with a thousand lonely suicides
and a dark wind blows
the government is corrupt
and we're on so many drugs
with the radio on and the curtains drawn
we're trapped in the belly of this horrible machine
and the machine is bleeding to death
the sun has fallen down
and the billboards are all leering
and the flags are all dead at the top of their poles
it went like this:
the buildings tumbled in on themselves
mothers clutching babies picked through the rubble
and pulled out their hair
the skyline was beautiful on fire
all twisted metal stretching upwards
everything washed in a thin orange haze
i said: "kiss me, you're beautiful --
these are truly the last days"
you grabbed my hand and we fell into it like a daydream or a fever
we woke up one morning and fell a little further down --
for sure it's the valley of death
i open up my wallet and it's full of blood
This one's an original, been lying in my brain for quite a while. Time to spew it out.
Ties are nooses
Strangling you
Corporate asphyxiation
workplace suicide
Rings are shackles
Binding you to places you hate
Broken promises, lies
I'm a fool
who believes in love
when sometimes
love is a word
with two vowels
two consonants
and two idiots
A fool
who loves life
when sometimes
I'd rather be dead
A fool, nonetheless
with only one thing left:
Hope.
I want to move out. Badly. I can't stand them. God knows I love them, but God knows I can't stand them. I just hope I can get something by this week. Something to keep me busy. Otherwise, I think I'm getting the fuck out of PR. I love my little island and my friends and it's a great place to visit, but not to stay. Not for me. Let's hope I can get that job so I can have some privacy and some space.
Ties are nooses
Strangling you
Corporate asphyxiation
workplace suicide
Rings are shackles
Binding you to places you hate
Broken promises, lies
I'm a fool
who believes in love
when sometimes
love is a word
with two vowels
two consonants
and two idiots
A fool
who loves life
when sometimes
I'd rather be dead
A fool, nonetheless
with only one thing left:
Hope.
I want to move out. Badly. I can't stand them. God knows I love them, but God knows I can't stand them. I just hope I can get something by this week. Something to keep me busy. Otherwise, I think I'm getting the fuck out of PR. I love my little island and my friends and it's a great place to visit, but not to stay. Not for me. Let's hope I can get that job so I can have some privacy and some space.
So the radio show went beautifully and then off to Barfly to do sound for Jorge Castro's gig. I left the equipment with Carlitos so I could hit Denny's with R. Then off to a drive. It was really good to be able to have a reallly good time once in a while. We're a happy family we're a happy family we're a happy family.......trust me I'd rather sing that, than Negative Creep Negative Creep Negative Creep and I'm stoned........ LOL
*BIG GRIN*
*BIG GRIN*
I think this one should speak by itself
In other news..... the GJ gig didn't go. Drummer quit at last minute. I think he's fired. Radio show and Barfly tomorrow hopefully. Too tired. Will collapse in bed any minute now.
On second thought after taking these two tests I don't know if I will sleep well, or you for that matter because..... I'm
Which Evil Criminal are You?
And......
Which annoying B-list celebrity are you?
Now that's seriously fooked. Have a great weekend.
Have a good one.
In other news..... the GJ gig didn't go. Drummer quit at last minute. I think he's fired. Radio show and Barfly tomorrow hopefully. Too tired. Will collapse in bed any minute now.
On second thought after taking these two tests I don't know if I will sleep well, or you for that matter because..... I'm
Which Evil Criminal are You?
And......
Which annoying B-list celebrity are you?
Now that's seriously fooked. Have a great weekend.
Have a good one.
Good morning. Or at least according to my sense of time. Here comes the weekend and I'm ready, willing and able. How about you?
I'm busy having a life again. In the sense of going out, meeting people, rehearsing with Golpe Justo (show tomorrow), watching movies, you know, living. And I'm happier. Much happier. Certain talks remained unspoken. I guess actions speak louder than words. Meanwhile watched "Brotherhood Of The Wolf" an excellent French film. Enjoyed it a lot. Gig tomorrow. Radio show Saturday. Very busy and very happy.
More Cthulu sightings or something. Instead of trying to patch things up with the problem with those teenage molestation charges or opening itself to say, female priests, the Roman Catholic Church does the opposite. Typical Catholic anal retentiveness.
The Weekend:
Friday - @ The Radio Station then went to play with Golpe Justo. The set was short and sweet and I got all this pent up frustration and aggression out. It was beautiful. Pure catharsis.
Saturday @ The movies with Jose Ramon to see Austin Powers Goldmember. Man! Whatta Laugh! Much needed laughter ensued. Afterwards the radio show then waited to see Los Siconautas at 2am. The placed was jam packed so I stepped outside and the sound was much better over there. After the show headed home. Had a nice little chat with a friend then at 6am tried to sleep but the room was so hot. Might as well buy a futon and sleep in the living room.
Friday - @ The Radio Station then went to play with Golpe Justo. The set was short and sweet and I got all this pent up frustration and aggression out. It was beautiful. Pure catharsis.
Saturday @ The movies with Jose Ramon to see Austin Powers Goldmember. Man! Whatta Laugh! Much needed laughter ensued. Afterwards the radio show then waited to see Los Siconautas at 2am. The placed was jam packed so I stepped outside and the sound was much better over there. After the show headed home. Had a nice little chat with a friend then at 6am tried to sleep but the room was so hot. Might as well buy a futon and sleep in the living room.
As per Angel's instructions I called S. We talked for a bit. She was upset. Friend of hers is sick and she's upset. Told me she'll call me in order to see if we can meet. I guess I'll sait and wait. Maybe play The Cure's "10:15 Saturday Night" or The Sisters Of Mercy's "Nine While Nine" while I'm at it.
Lady Locura is a charm. Funny and witty as hell. I like our little exchanges and verbal (actually written) sparring. Thank you for the laughs and keeping me on my toes.
I was supposed to blog about something and I completely forgot about it.
Los Introdujos want to be part of the Rojo y Negro family and I say: why not?
AYLK record out soon.
Talked to R today. She's quite a lovely person and I hope we'll meet on December if not earlier when she gets back to PR.
Show tomorrow with Golpe Justo. Catharsis. Non stop. Yeah!
Talked to my friend Nuria today too. It was good to receive some feminine insights about realtionships.
Lady Locura is a charm. Funny and witty as hell. I like our little exchanges and verbal (actually written) sparring. Thank you for the laughs and keeping me on my toes.
I was supposed to blog about something and I completely forgot about it.
Los Introdujos want to be part of the Rojo y Negro family and I say: why not?
AYLK record out soon.
Talked to R today. She's quite a lovely person and I hope we'll meet on December if not earlier when she gets back to PR.
Show tomorrow with Golpe Justo. Catharsis. Non stop. Yeah!
Talked to my friend Nuria today too. It was good to receive some feminine insights about realtionships.
Ladies and Gentlemen: Let us welcome Locura to the fold. (applause) You didn't noticed the sign at the door that reads "Abandon All Hope All Who Enter Here" did you? ;)
My weblog owns 37.5 % of me.
Does your weblog own you?
And now for something completely different:
Does your weblog own you?
Well....I'm 34 and supposedly I'm 33% gay and I'm Ready For Action when it's time to get down!!!! Wooohoo!!!!!!!!
Yes a much needed break from the usual atmosphere here.
So how was your day?
Mine went downhill about 2pm / 1400 hrs. I IM'ed my friend Noel to confirm today's gig. He's upset, pissed off, says he won't do the gig and he's not doing his events anymore. He's through. I understand. He fells burnt out. I let it go and try to confirm with the bar's owner. Leave three messages. No response. Carlitos calls confirms the gig is a go. That soothes me and the band for now. Still....
I called S. and tell her about the show. Quickly says she's not around (she lives close by the bar) but wishes me luck for the gig. Tries to end the call quickly in a hurry. I said bye. So much for the need to schedule the little talk. I don't know, but it seems this one's pretty much over, isnt it? Still... my buddy Angel tells me S and I should talk anyway. So let's just see.
So end of phonecall. This is the part of the movie when my heart feels empty and very heavy. I take deep breaths. I hit the shower. In the shower I cool off. Showers are good. But there's still this nagging feeling of dread. I can only sense where this is going. My day, such as it is.
Get dressed then call my friend C. to check on her. Her mom's back from Stateside and we talk a bit. C stands for cool calm collected, which she is. I'm in the middle of talking to her when my guitar player, Carlitos calls.
No power at the bar. No gig. Bernice (our singer) calls too. I tell her "I know already." More heaviness. Should we go? I say yes, we've got to go check it out and apologize to the people who actually bothered to go. We do. Bernice and I drive over there. We talk about stuff and then Bernice tells me her feelings about music and hers are similar to mine. We talk a little more and I end up realizing how similar we are in outlook.I end up telling her "You reaize we're so alike that it's scary?" She laughs and we end up joking that we feel miserable but at least we've got each other. Really!
We arrive. There are people outside. Carlitos and Jorge are there too. We show up and hang around for awhile, apologizing to the people who came to see us. Eventually the heat drives us to Candela Bar where there's AC and a female DJ spinning disco and hip hop. Bernice is dancing while Carlitos challenges me to breakdancing. Jorge is gone. Very pissed off. Angel is there too so we talk about the phone conversation and everything else. Bernice asks me if I want to go dancing with her to the club, I say no. I'm not in the mood and I don't want to inflict my mood to the rest of the band or the rest of humanity so I head back home.
Finally met David J and it was good meeting him. Lots of ideas and potential to do some great things in the name of art. He's going to NYC tomorrow and will be back in two weeks. Plenty of time to see if we can work his proposal out for an arts space.
I chat with my friend R for a bit and she's a good listener and a really cool person to have. I can't wait for her to come back here so we can see each other. She's that good.
Aside from that, I got some tests to do tomorrow, papers to pick up, maybe a grant to get a certification and right know I'm blogging to my heart's content.
Show with Golpe Justo on Friday so that means I'll be able to vent all this shit away screaming along with my favorite Puerto Rican hardcore band. Wheee!
So again, how was your day?
Ok children. Support is needed for internet radio and small webcasters to survive. Please take your time and follow this link. It's a petition that will be faxed to your Representative to let him/her know what's going on and make them take steps towards helping small indie webcasters. Let your voice be heard. Don't complain about things if you didn't make an effort to change them.
Rehearsals for the upcoming gig went well. Bernice brought the wine and we brought our insanity. Nice mix. I hope the show goes as planned. Need to talk to S. about things. She said we need to have a chat, and actually we do. Anyway, things are going pretty good in other aspects of my life. S and I are just going out, nothing's happening and I don't think it will, but I guess one must remain hopeful. Let's see what happens after our little chat.
Station meeting tomorrow. Gig on Wendesday. Whoooooooo!
Station meeting tomorrow. Gig on Wendesday. Whoooooooo!
Watched "The Royal Tennembaums" on DVD and "Eight Legged Freaks" with my friends. Much needed laughter. Talked to S. again and we know we need to get together up close and personal and really talk. I still fear the worst, but life has taught me not to assume anything. Still I am hopeful. Now if I could somehow get some sleep. :)
Ok there's a bright spot in all of this:
I just ran into six songs of a band I heard years ago on a Rough Trade sampler. They were called Sweet Jesus. I heard a song called "Phonefreak". Well the full title is "Phonefreak Honey" and I found six of their songs on the net. I was amazed. The other five are just as good and shows how cruel life can be sometimes when a band this good doesn't make it.
Anyway, got their tunes for posterity and also got House Of Love's "I Don't Know Why I Love You" which I've been looking for a while too. If I can get th' Faith Healers' Reptile Smile and Caspar Brotzmann Massaker's Koksofen, I'll be happy.
I just ran into six songs of a band I heard years ago on a Rough Trade sampler. They were called Sweet Jesus. I heard a song called "Phonefreak". Well the full title is "Phonefreak Honey" and I found six of their songs on the net. I was amazed. The other five are just as good and shows how cruel life can be sometimes when a band this good doesn't make it.
Anyway, got their tunes for posterity and also got House Of Love's "I Don't Know Why I Love You" which I've been looking for a while too. If I can get th' Faith Healers' Reptile Smile and Caspar Brotzmann Massaker's Koksofen, I'll be happy.
It's been a year since I started writing this. It's another anniversary of sorts. The more things change.... You can tell it's one of those days. I am sorry. Listening to old New Order, Yazoo and other groups.
All it takes is one misplaced joke and it all goes downhill. Shit. I'm sorry. Here I am expecting the worse. Yeah I know, drama, but I can't help it. Just the thing I need now. I think I fucked it up. For what it's worth you were the best thing that happened to me since I came back here. And now it's all gone wrong. Pray that I'm wrong, that I'm mistaken. It sure feels otherwise. I am sorry.
Went to Old San Juan to see S. She's so beautiful. I liked her dress. Talked a bit while walking around the Old City. Ended up at a free concert and met Mista Dave there. I like her a lot because we can talk about mostly everything and she's funny, witty entertaining. I hope she reads this one because she makes me feel good. Makes me smile and laugh. I miss that a lot. Then she wonders why there's a song named after her. Now you know. Always looking forward to see you. Take care.
Here I am slepless, restless. Again. Tossing, turning. Trying to get some sleep. Something. I don't want to be aware. I don't want to be awake. I don't want to feel. This. Emptiness. Waves of longing. Waves of regret. Things that should be buried surface. Feelings considered done and dealt with. Emerge. And it fucking hurts me. Cause if anything, I don't want this to overtake me again. I have a right to feel happy. With myself. With others. I cannot turn black the clock. I faced the music and dealt with the outcome. Still it comes. And I'd wish I had someone at my side. To kiss. To hold. To caress. To tell me it's alright. That's the past, I'm here for you. That would soothe me. Right now I have none of that. Friends are always welcome, but I need more than that. Something to make me feel alive and worthy. Please. I want to feel that again. Please.
Rehearsal today and announcing the birth of Boutique Endorfina. Antartica will be my outlet for solo electronics or with a guitarrist. B.E. is pretty much what Antartica was until now. Check it out.
I took the
What Mythological Creature Are you? test by
So what do you think? Watched WWE's Vengeance PPV with some friends. That was fun! Yeah I know, but wrestling is one of my few guilty pleasures. Heheh.
I don't expect this one to make a whole lotta sense. After downing five glasses of wine and a cranberry and vodka, on an empty stomach, things don't make much sense. But they sure are funny. Carlitos and I went to Mario Panoptika's apartment for this welcome bash. Nice little place near the university. Lots of people I don't know but hey, they were cool. Laughed a lot. Carlitos and I were the evening's heroes apparently. We came, we saw, we conquered. It was nice if S. was there. Needed someone to share the good vibes. I was tipsy but hey, it is nice.
Before that, the radio show. As far as shows go, we had to improvise a lot, but we're pros dammnit and we pulled it off nicely. Got some choice Enrique Bunbury tunes to like. So it went beautiful.
I'm eating something and drinking lots of water. No hangovers for tomorrow. It was a really good evening. Joy de Vivre, I guess. Seized the moment and enjoyed it at it's fullest.
Night night.
Before that, the radio show. As far as shows go, we had to improvise a lot, but we're pros dammnit and we pulled it off nicely. Got some choice Enrique Bunbury tunes to like. So it went beautiful.
I'm eating something and drinking lots of water. No hangovers for tomorrow. It was a really good evening. Joy de Vivre, I guess. Seized the moment and enjoyed it at it's fullest.
Night night.
Ok here's the latest antartica release. Buy in mass quantities. The shape of things to come. Something to give you while we get together and record with the proper band. I'm happy with it. Looking forward to the new stuff. Aside from that, well, if you happen to read this often (thanks and dare I call you a masochist/voyeur?), you know my usual needs, woes and worries. Let's just see if things change in those aspects.
Went with the boys to see "Reign Of Fire". Entertaining way to kill 2 hours. S. called. Got "American Gods" to her. Let's see what she makes of it. Radio show tomorrow and I wish I could see her. Also I might go clubbing tomorrow night. Need some dough. Ach.
2:22 in the morning. Gotta catch some rest.
Night.
2:22 in the morning. Gotta catch some rest.
Night.
Last night......
Met Pri, Bernice, Ian and Carlitos at the Blue Agape Bar to see Herman (aka the man searching for fun) spin. Really cool place. Killer tunes by Mr. Herman. Went for a quick one at Enlaces so Pri could see Amado and Over. Pri is a proud auntie of a boy. Hope to see him today. Real cute boy. S. was off at the movies watching "Road To Perdition". Wish I could see the movie. Let's see what the weekend holds.
On the way home, Bernice and I had one of our conversations regarding relationships, it was intense. New Order on the background and all. During it I said something that it was really hard to say because I was trying to hold back some tears. "What I really, really want in life, is someone who understands and accepts me for what I am, and I understand and accept her in return. I love music and I always will, but I cannot feel truly happy nor complete without that in my life."
Met Pri, Bernice, Ian and Carlitos at the Blue Agape Bar to see Herman (aka the man searching for fun) spin. Really cool place. Killer tunes by Mr. Herman. Went for a quick one at Enlaces so Pri could see Amado and Over. Pri is a proud auntie of a boy. Hope to see him today. Real cute boy. S. was off at the movies watching "Road To Perdition". Wish I could see the movie. Let's see what the weekend holds.
On the way home, Bernice and I had one of our conversations regarding relationships, it was intense. New Order on the background and all. During it I said something that it was really hard to say because I was trying to hold back some tears. "What I really, really want in life, is someone who understands and accepts me for what I am, and I understand and accept her in return. I love music and I always will, but I cannot feel truly happy nor complete without that in my life."
Just finished watching "Monster's Ball". Wow. Really good film.
I wished I could talk to S right now. There are few moments when I really fell good. Playing with the band, hanging out with my friends, or just sitting down talking with S. Yeah I need love and affection, but I also need the company. Sometimes I just feel lonely. Really lonely. I sometimes walk the streets by myself. Just to get that away. Sometimes I create music. Music being one of my outlets. But sometimes I don't have that at hand or it's not enough. I need to feel a voice or chat with someone who understands you, who gets it. I also need to listen. Dialogue. Interaction. I really miss that. If you're reading this, I appreciate the fact that you take the time to see me and talk. I really enjoy your company. I don't want to blow it. Let me know because I don't want to be a bother. Thanks. Take care.
I think I'm going bed after I watch another movie.
Take care,
I wished I could talk to S right now. There are few moments when I really fell good. Playing with the band, hanging out with my friends, or just sitting down talking with S. Yeah I need love and affection, but I also need the company. Sometimes I just feel lonely. Really lonely. I sometimes walk the streets by myself. Just to get that away. Sometimes I create music. Music being one of my outlets. But sometimes I don't have that at hand or it's not enough. I need to feel a voice or chat with someone who understands you, who gets it. I also need to listen. Dialogue. Interaction. I really miss that. If you're reading this, I appreciate the fact that you take the time to see me and talk. I really enjoy your company. I don't want to blow it. Let me know because I don't want to be a bother. Thanks. Take care.
I think I'm going bed after I watch another movie.
Take care,
Man O Man!!!!! This one's for all of you Thomas Harris fans. This film has the cast down pat *and* the screenwriter of Silence of The Lambs. Enough said. GO!!!!
Last night's gig
Aleph - Blues and some stoner rock. They're ok but they don't move me as much. Oh well.
Ongo - Live they're so much better than on the record. Really intense and energetic.
Polbo - I loved their mp3's and they're so much better and funnier live. Think the Pixies kicking Weezer's ass for their lunch money. Great harmonies, solid songwriting, nice timing on the song. I was very impressed.
Went to see S. She was a bit sick but it was good seeing her. Kitipri's big sis is giving birth today.
Aleph - Blues and some stoner rock. They're ok but they don't move me as much. Oh well.
Ongo - Live they're so much better than on the record. Really intense and energetic.
Polbo - I loved their mp3's and they're so much better and funnier live. Think the Pixies kicking Weezer's ass for their lunch money. Great harmonies, solid songwriting, nice timing on the song. I was very impressed.
Went to see S. She was a bit sick but it was good seeing her. Kitipri's big sis is giving birth today.
Rehearsal today with Antartica. Really cool. A couple of new songs and everyone's happy. Tomorrow I'm going to see Aleph, Polbo and Ongo. Polbo and Ongo are great. I haven't seen Aleph yet. Also seeing the lovely Ms. S. Hopefully. :) Creative wise I'm doing ok and that's the way I like it.
It's official! The Musique Concrete Ensemble remix is done. It's called Sylvie's Dub. You can download sample of it here. Enjoy!
My friend Kitipri is in town and she's going to be an auntie. Yay! So we've got some clubbing to do.
It's official! The Musique Concrete Ensemble remix is done. It's called Sylvie's Dub. You can download sample of it here. Enjoy!
My friend Kitipri is in town and she's going to be an auntie. Yay! So we've got some clubbing to do.
And then you wonder why "Heroes" is my favorite Bowie album and "Ashes To Ashes" is my favorite song.
Rehearsals with Golpe Justo went very well. Lots of fun and screaming. The way I like it. Had to deal with some unpleasantness with management after the DJ gig with Jorge Castro, but hopefully, that will pass. If not, well, that's life. I don't need the aggravation. Hopefully it will all be sorted out.
Finally finished "American Gods". Loved it. Not as good as "Neverwhere", but really good Gaiman. I still think the Marquis de Carabas as my favorite Gaiman literary character. Of course my favorite Sandman character is the most cheerful sibling of The Endless: Death.
The gig with Golpe Justo. Man! I got all that pent up energy and unleashed it on everyone. We were jumping and singing and just fucking having a blast. Beautiful. Sheer catharsis.
Went out with Bernice, Carlitos and S. over to Blue Jeans to watch Oruga and Macrodelirio. Oruga as always kicks ass. Macrodelirio sounds too much like other bands for me to like. Had a really productive day and an enjoyable evening. Finished a song with Bernice and created another one and the evening went fine. I got over the pinkeye btw. Medicated aggressively. Gone. Today got a rehearsal with Golpe Justo and another DJ set with Jorge Castro. Busy busy busy. My heart races whenever I see her, but I need to be patient.
Just finished recording a killer comp for S., a score for a friend's performance and starting a remix for the musique concrete ensemble. Keeping myself busy to avoid gloom doom and boredom. In other news, I got pinkeye. Bummer. Oh well. Gotta go. Need some rest.
Just came back from DJing at Candela along with Noel Villegas. Much better and shorter set. It was fun mixing some original material with stuff from Curve and 2 Long Swordsmen. Went over to S's place to drop her a couple of CD's. Saw her flat (as in apartment you sods!). Nice little place she has. Lovely woman she is. *Smiles* Haven't felt like that for a while. Maybe she's the reason I actually got to do a really cool DJ set. Had some people and several lovely ladies dancing. Yes. Impressed. Heh. Thanks to Iohann and Mica for dropping me in the nick of time. Noel also DJd a killer set. Some really cool tunes. Flipped when I heard Wire's "Ahead". Haven't heard that one in a loooooong while. The Band of Susans cover was good too. Managed to burn another cd for S. Probably will give it to her this Friday. Let's see what happens this weekend.
Tomorrow and Friday are going to be so hectic. I better hit the sack. G'night.
Tomorrow and Friday are going to be so hectic. I better hit the sack. G'night.
GJ show cancelled. Going through American Gods. Really cool book. Bit dissapointed but hey. Bernice was supposed to call to go out with Jorge and the crew. Guess she forgot. Bad things comes in threes and last night my dad got sick and scared the shit outta me. I'm gonna finish that book tonight and then look for some sunshine. the emotional kind.
Update: Starting Neil Gaiman's "American Gods". Either it was that or the latest issue of "The Wire" w/DJ Shadow on the cover and other assorted musical icons. What would you choose? Borders. I like it. A lot.
Show with Golpe Justo tonight at Rumba.
Show with Golpe Justo tonight at Rumba.
Things are running smoothly. Sort of. Getting some stuff done for the tattoo convention and a show tomorrow. Rented "Spy Game" and "The Mothman Prophecies". Second one is brilliant. From the same team that brought "Arlington Road". Suspenseful and creepy as hell. Aside from that, not much. Wrote two new riffs to play with. Let's see what happens.
Went this morning to Eze's blog to take a little test. If I was a character on Kevin Smith's View Askew Universe, I'd be
This is the part where my godmother would yell "I KNEW IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" but then to her, everyone is gay. I have bisexual, gay and lesbian friends whom I adore and love and I know the shit they went through when discovering their sexuality. If I was gay, I don't think I'd have a problem admitting to it. I don't feel the need to hide my sexual orientation. I am what I am to paraphrase from Le Cage Aux Folles. People will either accept me or won't. That's their problem.
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This is the part where my godmother would yell "I KNEW IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" but then to her, everyone is gay. I have bisexual, gay and lesbian friends whom I adore and love and I know the shit they went through when discovering their sexuality. If I was gay, I don't think I'd have a problem admitting to it. I don't feel the need to hide my sexual orientation. I am what I am to paraphrase from Le Cage Aux Folles. People will either accept me or won't. That's their problem.
Saturdayyyyyyyyyyy
Woke up in an extremely cheerful mode. "I feel so extraordinary" . New Order indeed. Went to the station to download more plugins for my machine. Cool. Carlitos was on his way to pick me up to the gig. Vicious rain. Both of us made it to soundcheck. Bernice and Jorge were on their way and the soundman was a fucking idiot even though there was no one at the venue. Bernice and Jorge arrived, we did an improptu soundcheck and played 4 songs. It was cool and funny as hell.
Then it was off to eat some chicken pinchos (shish kebabs for all of you out there) and talk with the band. Then back to the venue to go to Barfly. I did a DJ set and the guys wanted to play so.......they played a set by themselves while I took a little break and then we all got together to play after a set. It was fun but I was saddened by internal shit that I have to resolve. Things have the potential for the better and I see the wave coming. I gotta ride it and ride it well. Can't afford to crash this time. I kinda went off to my mates for a while but I quickly apologized and told them it was not my fault. I was going through some akward thought process and I needed to sort it out. It took some sleep and time with my friends Alberto, Robert and Alex the next day (today).
Just being with four guys who I've been forever with, playing an RPG and laughing our asses off at our wisecracks took that bad feeling off. Catch that wave and ride it. Go with the flow. I'll suceed and ride to the sunset when the credits roll.
S called me and I'm glad she liked the mixed cd I gave her. I have to burn her a CD of Antartica stuff again. Snafu? Don't know. What I do know is that I gotta burn her some more stuff probably Chuck E. Weiss, more Dog Faced Hermans. Shoot I should get that live album and burn her a copy. It's that good. On that note, got Antipop Consortium's Arrhythmia CD from Hip Hop Vox's Tek 9. Damn! those New Yorkers are good. Gotta burn him Techno Animal so he can get some of that.
On a technical note: The Rioport CD player is the shiznit. Nice piece of technology to play with. Thanks Miguel for lending it to me for the DJ set. Carlitos is off this week for a well deserved vacation. Playing with Golpe Justo this Tuesday and Sunday. Gotta burn a mix for Wilfredo's performance on Sunday. Keeping myself busy. Good.
Cut. :D
Woke up in an extremely cheerful mode. "I feel so extraordinary" . New Order indeed. Went to the station to download more plugins for my machine. Cool. Carlitos was on his way to pick me up to the gig. Vicious rain. Both of us made it to soundcheck. Bernice and Jorge were on their way and the soundman was a fucking idiot even though there was no one at the venue. Bernice and Jorge arrived, we did an improptu soundcheck and played 4 songs. It was cool and funny as hell.
Then it was off to eat some chicken pinchos (shish kebabs for all of you out there) and talk with the band. Then back to the venue to go to Barfly. I did a DJ set and the guys wanted to play so.......they played a set by themselves while I took a little break and then we all got together to play after a set. It was fun but I was saddened by internal shit that I have to resolve. Things have the potential for the better and I see the wave coming. I gotta ride it and ride it well. Can't afford to crash this time. I kinda went off to my mates for a while but I quickly apologized and told them it was not my fault. I was going through some akward thought process and I needed to sort it out. It took some sleep and time with my friends Alberto, Robert and Alex the next day (today).
Just being with four guys who I've been forever with, playing an RPG and laughing our asses off at our wisecracks took that bad feeling off. Catch that wave and ride it. Go with the flow. I'll suceed and ride to the sunset when the credits roll.
S called me and I'm glad she liked the mixed cd I gave her. I have to burn her a CD of Antartica stuff again. Snafu? Don't know. What I do know is that I gotta burn her some more stuff probably Chuck E. Weiss, more Dog Faced Hermans. Shoot I should get that live album and burn her a copy. It's that good. On that note, got Antipop Consortium's Arrhythmia CD from Hip Hop Vox's Tek 9. Damn! those New Yorkers are good. Gotta burn him Techno Animal so he can get some of that.
On a technical note: The Rioport CD player is the shiznit. Nice piece of technology to play with. Thanks Miguel for lending it to me for the DJ set. Carlitos is off this week for a well deserved vacation. Playing with Golpe Justo this Tuesday and Sunday. Gotta burn a mix for Wilfredo's performance on Sunday. Keeping myself busy. Good.
Cut. :D
What A Day!
Morning to afternoon >>> sending packages paying bills getting my haircut
afternoon >>> going to noctambulo and trying to track down noel for a dj gig
evening >>>> what can I say?
First off, I'm sorry for being late but a situation held me down and I left a message to give a call to S. but to no avail. Once I met her. Man! God you're so much beautiful up close and personal. I was in awe for the rest of the evening. Had drinks at Hard Rock. It was good to see you blush. Then we headed off for Transylvania for dinner. Dinner was good. Conversation much better. It's great to know that there's someone out there in your age group that you can relate to. Smart, witty, cool observations about life, travel, music. Wow. Eventually even though we sort of had to deal with an improptu flooding, nothing serious, mind you, we had to call it a night. Walked her home and we just talked. Nice. Relaxed. Laid back. Nice evening, said our goodbyes nice kiss and a hug. I actually look forward to meeting you again. I enjoyed it. I haven't felt this good in awhile. Thank you for giving me an opportunity to meet the funny, intelligent, witty, sensitive, smart, well educated person that you are and have a great weekend! :)
Afterwards I headed back to Hard Rock Cafe to see Icaro Azul. Good as always then meet Andy and Juan. More drinks (on their end) I only had a beer afterwards. TabaCo sucks so much it's not even funny. Then again it's just my opinion. Left for Barfly. Finally got to see Andy's exhibition. Nice pictures, love Ingrid's portrait. Met Jose Ramon and Javier Tous there. Not for long though. Went back home listening to Muse and Morbo. Muse are like Radiohead's really pissed off little brother and Morbo are a Mexican New Order mixed with a bit of Smashing Pumpkins.
All in all a good day. Gig and DJ thingie tomorrow. Happy happy joy joy. :)
Morning to afternoon >>> sending packages paying bills getting my haircut
afternoon >>> going to noctambulo and trying to track down noel for a dj gig
evening >>>> what can I say?
First off, I'm sorry for being late but a situation held me down and I left a message to give a call to S. but to no avail. Once I met her. Man! God you're so much beautiful up close and personal. I was in awe for the rest of the evening. Had drinks at Hard Rock. It was good to see you blush. Then we headed off for Transylvania for dinner. Dinner was good. Conversation much better. It's great to know that there's someone out there in your age group that you can relate to. Smart, witty, cool observations about life, travel, music. Wow. Eventually even though we sort of had to deal with an improptu flooding, nothing serious, mind you, we had to call it a night. Walked her home and we just talked. Nice. Relaxed. Laid back. Nice evening, said our goodbyes nice kiss and a hug. I actually look forward to meeting you again. I enjoyed it. I haven't felt this good in awhile. Thank you for giving me an opportunity to meet the funny, intelligent, witty, sensitive, smart, well educated person that you are and have a great weekend! :)
Afterwards I headed back to Hard Rock Cafe to see Icaro Azul. Good as always then meet Andy and Juan. More drinks (on their end) I only had a beer afterwards. TabaCo sucks so much it's not even funny. Then again it's just my opinion. Left for Barfly. Finally got to see Andy's exhibition. Nice pictures, love Ingrid's portrait. Met Jose Ramon and Javier Tous there. Not for long though. Went back home listening to Muse and Morbo. Muse are like Radiohead's really pissed off little brother and Morbo are a Mexican New Order mixed with a bit of Smashing Pumpkins.
All in all a good day. Gig and DJ thingie tomorrow. Happy happy joy joy. :)
Later tonight. Hopefully we'll meet. We'll take it from there. Just eager to meet her. Rehearsals with Antartica are going fantastic. Beautiful music being done. Really cool vibe. Gig on saturday. Probably DJing @ barfly later that evening. It doesn't stop.
Extremely happy. Phoned her again. Hopefully getting together. Soon. Got some stuff for her. Hope she likes them. It's really cool to be able to talk with someone. Even if it's for five mintues. Looking forward to it. Sampled some stuff for my friends of Golpe Justo and even managed to sang (or scream actually) with them. That was really cool and cathartic. I miss them lots and it was a good fime for all involved. Show on Saturday. Possibly another rehearsal tomorrow and looking forward to chat wth her. Yes. Happy. Thank you.
It's the fist time in awhile that I'm happy. Happy because I talked to her even for a short while. Because for the first time in awhile, someone actually wants to meet me. Talk to me and getting to know me. Also the rehearsal was really good. Better than most. I actually look forward to meet and get to know her. She's the best thing that happened to me in a while. *Grinning*.
Finished "The Fountains Of Paradise". Station meeting. Rehearsal. Aside from that, not much going on.
Halfway through "The Fountains Of Paradise" probably gonna start reading James Gleick's "Chaos". I wonder if Carmelo still has "Godel, Escher, Bach" and "The Dancing Wu Li Masters" available. Also busy watching some movies and downloading plugins for my sequencer. I'm trying to keep myself busy.
Called her. Lovely voice. Me and my sense of timing though, that's a laugh.
Called her. Lovely voice. Me and my sense of timing though, that's a laugh.
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