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too much things on my mind of late up to an including:

johnny cash - i know, mtv is hip on the man in black, wootpy fucking doo but i got two songs of his in heavy rotation on my mind for a few weeks now. scary. then again he's in that cool redneck category where billy bob thornton and les claypool are so.......

knoppix linux live cd - amazing shit. one of the two linux distros (aside from mandrake) that i've been able to run and no hassle. this one actually rocks more because..... LOOK MA! NO PARTITION!!!!!!!!! ftp'd this bugger, burn it in a cd, slap it in the cd drive at boot and voila! here's linux. i love the technology curve.

sleep or lack thereof.

sex or lack thereof.

missing V. terribly. i didn't get to see her on Friday because her meet was rescheduled.

new schedule. wheeeeeee!

got some killer dvd's real cheap. more to come.

bleah!!!!!!!!!!
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In which I got a new shift, spent several days reprogramming ze laptop from the ground up again. Nothing serious, just got a really good price for a 30 gig HD for it and hell, it's more space. So ze laptop is agile mobile hostile and lots of memory to spare. Wheeeeeeee. I'm sorta burning out here but it's all good.
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So.......
I miss V. lots. Hopefully I'll see her this week.
and.......
I HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE!!!!! New shift starting next week Thursdays and Fridays off. Joy!
Aside from that I need some more sleep. As always. ;)
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Just when I thought Thursday was shitty, I get an email notifying me of the death of Wesley Willis. It's sad to see someone like him just go. The good die relatively young and the rest of us stay here dealing with it. Jello Biafra made a great eulogy at his label's site. MTV put up the usual blurb. All I know that Mista Ducky got me into his works and not only found him funny, but amazing and inspiring as well. I hope he's storming heaven and rocking the house in a funride over there. Rock Over London, Rock On Chicago. Rest In Peace, Wesley. You bought a lot of laughter into my life. Take care.

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i just want to say that i'm pretty pissed off at the moment and i want to apologize to rose but i think right now in my life what i need is to act about what's going on instead of talking about it. talking is always good, but right now i need to get some plans in motion.

watched "League Of Extraordinary Gentlemen". it's not as bad as i thought, but yeah compared to the comic it's rather weak. can't wait to see "28 Days Later" next week
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not much to say really. not much time to do things i want because both my parents are sick. aside from that, not much to tell. any morbid introspections are saved when i actually have time for morbid instropections. ;)
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Things To Ponder While You're Recording A 4 Hour Movie

Well, I just bought a nice little book on how to learn Linux and it includes Red Hat Linux 9. I had Mandrake before but in a way, it was easy to install but I changed my mind about it. Anyway, I want to install on the laptop and I have several choices:

Erase everything on the hard drive, partition, re-install Windows XP and Red Hat.
Same as before but install Windows 2000.
Save some money and buy a bigger hard drive for this and then have 2 giant partitions

If I do steps 1 or 2, I'd be inclined also to partition also the portable drive as well.

I could just wait until I have the money to get the hard drive, but I wanna find out.

Of course I could just go to sleep and wake up when the movie's over. LOL.

In other news, spoke to V. Always making her laugh. At my own expense. :) Her fetishes worry me though. :p

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Fuckin' Hell!

Yesterday some cities in the Northeast went without power. Then I see one local band who actually deserves all the fame and fortune they've got because they work hard for it, in a Taco Bell cup. To end my evening or actually start my Friday, I watch Gaspar Noe's "Irreversible". The unrated version. This movie fucking blew me away. I kinda was prepared for it because of the reviews and the subject matter. Still it did a number on my psyche. Time Destroys Everything, indeed.

Oh and my lovely girlfriend, ah! Nevermind. She's having fun at my expense again. Let her. LOL.
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Spent this last few days cleaning my virtual house. Deleted a lot of unnecessary stuff and files and backed up the rest. Want to turn this one into a lean mean fighting machine. Checking out the budget to upgrade the hard drive. Turning this mutha upside down. Also bought myself some books to take care of my brain as well. Gonna teach myself some new sets of skills.

Aside from that, my ex haunted my dreams again and thank god for V. being there. My heart's with V. totally, no doubt, but my subconscious tries to fuck with my perceptions every now and then, even when I realize it's just a dream. Fucker's gotta realize that some things are left in the past and even though i hate loose ends, unless a major thing happens, that one stays that way. Somethings you can sort, others unfortunately can't be sorted out.

Here I am sleepless again, bit restless, but nothing serious. I just want to get some more dough to upgrade the harddrive so I can partition it and then run two OS's from the machine. Patience, grasshopper. Good things come to those who wait, and all that.

Returned the favor to Big Al and his girl. Lovely bunch those two. Gotta love them. Helped Carmelito get back online. Installed him a browser and a firewall. Gotta install him a decent antivirus. Getting helped and helping people. Always good to have good karma to spread around. Get the universe on one's side everynow and then, and it feels warm, good and gooey inside. LOL.

Watched SWAT today, Pirates of the Caribbean yesterday. Nothing deep. Good to kill a couple of hours and entertaining. Tomorrow I look forward to get Gaspar Noe's "Irreversible". That one's gonna pack some punch and I better be ready if it is what they say it is.

Wishing V. here, as always.

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So I'm almost ending my shift on Monday ready for my two days off when it hits me. My stomach hurts like hell. My bile is rising. I know what's coming and I don't want to make a mess. Although truth be told if I was gonna barf, it'd be nice to barf all over the workplace to shock and fuck with people, but that was the last thing in my mind. I wouldn't mind doing that, but for the fact that I had to drive home and that was not a pretty prospect.
So I talk to my boss, he lets me go, I get my things and get the fuck outta Dodge. I drive and my full blown paranoia sets in. I don't want to puke while driving. So I drive as fast and as carefully as I can. Not much traffic at midnight so I make it home. I gather my supplies and wait for it. Gaviscon, Pepto Bismol. A bucket and mop just in case. I try to lie down but my stomach won't let me. Pain is coming, I want to puke but my body won't let me just yet. Then.........
I look and felt like Linda Blair in the Exorcist. Messy shit but at least it's all on the right place. After puking my guts off, I down some Gaviscon and it's working finally. The mess in the stomach settles down and things get quiet enough for me to.......
Then I had a case of the runs. It's cool. I can handle those. It keeps me up all night but It's nothing to worry about. Take care of those. Wait till the sun rises. I drink enough water to avoid dehydration. I go to bed and try to sleep. Of course, I never sleep so here I am writing. I'm much better and now at least I can eat something. Supposedly I'm getting the money I'm owed from the bank tomorrow. Fingers crossed. Cancelled my appointment with the dentist until next week and I have to set up an appointment with my other Dr. to take care of my blood sugar levels.

Gross, wasn't it?
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sunday and i'm broke and i'm restless and my bank owes me money damnit. but i'm agile, mobile and very fuckin' hostile. and you're not. ;)
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Saturdaaaaaaaaaaaaaay
Ok. So after spending ane evening with V. and most of today I realize I'm broke. I get very fucking angry and then it hits me. I have to check with ze bank. Ze bank's system's are unavailable. Knee deep in Shit Creek. Call up Al who lends me some quid to eat and to pay for gas for ze Vmobile. I eat something and then while I'm trying to find out why, I see a package in my bed. Yes, the battery and the memory. So once again, I'm agile, mobile and hostile. At least the laptop is, and now with MORE MEMORY! LOL

Yes and even though ze tooth was removed, the area still bothers me a bit. At least it's not as painful now.
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Tooth removed. The wonders of novocaine. If I was an addict, that'd be my drug of choice. Not feel anything at all. Aside from that it's really hot down here and I'm happy. Looking forward to see V. Friday. Might go out tonight being Noche de Galeria. Dunno yet. Probably will create some stuff tomorrow. Aside from that, the work situation is settled. Got some interviews coming so my schedule will be busy.
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These past few days been very busy at work saving some money, paying debts. Taking care of stuff. Sleeping. Finally two days off tomorrow. Will take care of ze troublesome tooth and pay my dsl bill. Sleep. More sleep. Damnit. Sleep.
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I think therefore I am, therefore, today I am a cyborg. Assimilated. Using of my nicks, Mr. Something and using this lovely generator, I discovered my true nature. As in:
Mr. Something aka M.R.S.O.M.E.T.H.I.N.G.: Mechanical Robotic Sabotage and Observation Machine/Electronic Technician Hardwired for Infiltration and Nocturnal Gratification

Resistance is futile. You will comply.

End of transmission.

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V. Here's Something for you:

Irving Berlin - Always

Intro:
Everything went wrong,
And the whole day long
I’d feel so blue.
For the longest while
I’d forget to smile,
Then I met you.
Now that my blue days have passed,
Now that I’ve found you at last -
{end intro}


I’ll be loving you always
With a love that’s true always.
When the things you’ve planned
Need a helping hand,
I will understand always.

Always.

Days may not be fair always,
That’s when I’ll be there always.
Not for just an hour,
Not for just a day,
Not for just a year,
But always.

I’ll be loving you, oh always
With a love that’s true always.
When the things you’ve planned
Need a helping hand,
I will understand always.

Always.

Days may not be fair always,
That’s when I’ll be there always.
Not for just an hour,
Not for just a day,
Not for just a year,
But always.

Not for just an hour,
Not for just a day,
Not for just a year,
But always.